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Heavy Heart Today...

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Heavy heart today…

Log into facebook, it’s there. Every time I turn on the TV, it’s there. Every radio station, all the local news channels, talk in the grocery store….Another detail about the day’s tragic events: a teacher’s story about putting her kids into a closet, a 6 year old leading his class outside after their teacher was shot, it’s just a bit too much too bear. I can not imagine the horrific experience all of these people are going through. When I put myself in the position of a teacher in that school, or in the position of the parents who did not get to hold their children last night, I shudder, then I stop myself. I change the channel. I force my brain to think about something else. Then I feel ashamed, embarrassed, and guilty that I have the luxury to do that. The people who lived through this ordeal will never be able to do that. I can only hope that in time their pain eases a bit.

I got out this morning to run a couple errands. Being out and about, around other people got my mind off it for a bit. That’s what I need to do today. Keep myself busy. Turn off the TV.

I did have a positive weigh in this morning. Down 1.4 for a total of 65 lbs lost. The Thanksgiving damage is repaired and I’m making forward progress again, so that feels good. It’s my birthday this week, but other than going out to dinner and indulging in a piece of cake, I shouldn’t get too far off track. It’s an opportunity to be grateful for another year on this planet and I’m going to make the best of the year to come!

I’ll keep moving forward today…hug my family a little tighter…be a little kinder…and see the positive in all that I can. But my heart is heavy.
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    Hope you have a great birthday! I too am horrified about what happened. My students up in Alaska wanted to know why the guy was wasting bullets, and were totally grossed out because, up there, you only shoot what your are going to eat.
    2009 days ago
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    Congrats on the loss on hope you have an awesome Birthday!!!
    2012 days ago
    yes all teachers and parents will feel this tragedy for a long time. I know I used to fret about being across the hall from a secondary entrance at my school..... I did get them to install cameras though.....

    You have a big job to with your teaching and I know you will find little ways to reassure your students.

    Congrats on the continued weight loss and Happy Birthday.
    2013 days ago
    I know how you feel :( My heart has been so heavy the last few days that I don't even want to see any more of it!!

    CONGRATS ON THE WEIGHT LOSS! WOO HOO!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2014 days ago
  • KAREN91
    One of our principals sent a email where he encouraged us to give our children an extra hug. This is a horrible thing that happened! We need to pray for those families and be grateful for our own families and loved ones every day. I also had a heavy heart listening to the news and I cried. I also needed to get away from the news for awhile. emoticon
    2015 days ago
    Well said--an event I hope to never experience and wish no one else would have to experience either.

    Happy birthday to you and way to go on your loss!
    2016 days ago
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    2016 days ago
    Many hearts are heavy today and you have said it beautifully!
    2016 days ago
    Grats on the loss and Happy Birthday! On the bad news side of things, we can't let ourselves be paralyzed by what we see on the news, otherwise our own lives will cease. There are tragedies happening everyday, all over the world, we just have to pray for those affected and thank God that we were not involved in it. My 2 cents worth anyway.
    2016 days ago

    and emoticon on the progress
    2016 days ago
  • BEWELL48
    Oh, so well said! Horrific indeed but we must go about our day and be so grateful for every moment!
    2016 days ago
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