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Another small thing....but it felt big

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

I'm struggling a bit with my program and today I had a stressful day at work. Someone I am really close to is seriously ill and then, my father, with whom I barely have a relationship sent money to my husband to give to our kids for Christmas because he said I lost a check last year. (I can be disorganized but I did not lose a check) I don't know why it bothered me so much but it did and I started thinking about how disorganized I have sometimes been in the past and felt lousy about myself . (And my father)

I made a dish of ice cream, put chocolate sauce on it and got into the tub with the dish and a magazine. I took a big bite and then (this is a bit gross) leaned out of the tub, dumped the rest of the ice cream in the toilet (I have a small bathroom) and flushed.

For the first time in a long time, I stopped. I actually forced myself to think about why I would allow someone else to make me feel so bad about myself that I would eat junk when I want so badly to change my health.

A little thing, but it felt big!

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    Good for you... Realizing ice cream would not be the answer! My mother makes me feel the same way...Keep your head up...
    1991 days ago
    I disagree that wasn't big that was HUGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    !! Be so proud of yourself girl!!!!!!! Sometimes it takes something like that to get us really thinking and being serious about our health, good for you!!!!!!!!!!!!
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    1991 days ago
    All the little things add up to big things in the end. Hope everything works out for you
    1991 days ago
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