I do not deserve this :(

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

My ex-boyfriend and I broke up on good terms. No cheats, no games, no lies.
The words came out of my mouth but he said he wanted to break up too.

He works in the same institution as me. He is a mover.
I am planned to change office, I should have been moved on thrusday, then friday, then monday. Now... who knows when !

I do not deserve this. Whatever his reasons may be.
I am going to keep my calm and pretend that I could not care less about the move.

This is so unexpected. I do not deserve this. I have never been through anything like this. It makes me sad.

Nutrition : GOOD, Trying new varieties of food, gradually increasing calories, increasingly liking the "tracking" thing.

Exercise : listening to my body, took a rest day on sunday without any guilt.

Sleep: trying to get more sleep, will be taking "melatonin" because I am really struggling! - any advice?

Mood : confused, annoyed, sometimes mad at him.

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    1990 days ago
    I hope that everything will turn out fine !
    1990 days ago
    I am finally moved into my new office. I initiated a talk with my ex and he made some unfounded excuse. At least now he knows where I stand. I hate arguing but I choose my battles and this was simply not fair. I am happy in my new office. Less stressed and can concentrate on my work and my lifestyle. I am at peace finally.
    Thank you all for your support.
    1991 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/13/2012 10:13:05 AM
    Hang in there. There is only one way to go from here...UP! The move will be all the sweeter when you do move! Life is full of frustration, but without frustration we'd never experience the feeling of elation! emoticon
    1992 days ago
    Sounds like you have taken the steps necessary on a personal and professional basis...Breathe deeply and stay strong! You're taking the right steps towards your goals. emoticon
    1992 days ago
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    1992 days ago
    @randomly honest I tried to get some information and there is no professional reasons why the move to my new office space has not been done. Even IT came on thursday then friday then gave up. So I was left with no other option but to talk to my supervisor. I was not spiteful. I simply explained my need to move ASAP. Even my supervisor was confused as to why the move has not been done.

    @sadwhitewolf thank you for this advice. I am definetly going to try it. Because now that I have found the benefit of resting I cannot actually rest peacefully at night. I keep waking up. I hope that it will help with setting the exercise, rest balance. So that I can be fully energised.

    Thank you both for your comments
    It means a LOT
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    1993 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/11/2012 9:01:27 AM
    Melatonic really helps me sometimes. Most come in a 3mg dose but I order Dual release Melatoni from Swanson Vitamins.. it gives it to you in two doses, to help keep you asleep.
    1993 days ago
    Sorry to hear that your personal relationship is affecting your work. Is there any other reason why the move might be delayed? Is there someone higher-up you can talk to to get it resolved?
    1993 days ago
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