Yesterday I did 20 minutes of Yoga Today with Sarah Kline. And for the first time in a week, the fluid in my legs from my meds, has finally come down 2 pounds. I am hoping to continue that trend. I have 78 pounds to go to goal. I have lost 80, and kept off 50 for over 5 years now. I consider myself a success because in my family we have so many women (on my father's side) who are extremely morbidly obese. There are women my height that tip the scales at 600 pounds. When I started this journey, my goal was to avoid the 300 pound mark. I took the advice of Sandra Ahten (the Reasonable Diet podcast host.) 'Point in the right direction'. I'm not nearly that sick anymore. My blood sugar was a cool 84 mg per decileter (fasting). I can exercise for 60 minutes at a stretch now, in the beginning I was not able to do more than 15 minutes of walking and just 15 seconds of rapid breath of fire.
I did Kathy Smith's 'Fat Burning' workout this morning. I really enjoyed it. I didn't feel like it when I started, but about 40 minutes into it, I had a smile on my face.
I don't know why I don't want to start sometimes. Its not that it would really be that hard and I know it. I think I need to do a meditation on that to release whatever is holding me back. It might be left over fear from gym class. I was always last and I failed that class in school because my endurance wasn't there. I worked harder than anyone else and I was always last. 'Slow Poke'.
I had trouble in school. I endured a lot of bullying, I think thats normal for everyone. Verbal abuse leaves a mark too. I have done lots of meditations to release that ugly energy. Now, I think its a case of left over tendencies to protect myself. I don't have to avoid it anymore. And, so what if someone thinks I'm not perfect enough, big -ing deal.
I choose to live today instead of honoring that bullying. There is no honor in bullying, so I'm not giving it something it doesn't deserve in the first place. 2 of 3 of us suffer from obesity in the US. And whats more, we out weigh the other guy
How is it that the scrawny minority (a good portion of whom are skinny fat anyway) get away with bullying us?
I have started 'South Beach'. I made the 'quiche cups' for breakfast. I drank 1/2 a low sodium V8 this morning. I had a plain yogurt for lunch. I wasn't hungry enough to eat a meal. I guess this stuff must really work. I'm just sipping hot green tea this afternoon and I'm not even hungry yet. I will continue the trend with a hot turkey chili for dinner. I have leftover meat from turkey day to use. It was such a beautiful bird, I hate to waste it. Btw, the organic chicken was scrumptious. I made it with paprika, garlic salt, salt, and pepper. I cooked it on a bed of celery and carrots. I stuffed it with 1/2 a lemon. Oh my, so good!! I roasted it at 300 degrees until the bones slipped right out of their meat.