Grandma, Pregnant Sister, Roger, James and Jamie....

Monday, December 10, 2012

I visited my Grandmother yesterday. emoticon She had at least two strokes over the weekend. My family decided to take to transfer her to a hospice house. It was very difficult to watch her like that. My sister, Tammy, didn't come up and see her yet. Honestly, I don't know if she will because she is already emotional being pregnant emoticon and all.

Today is the one year emoticon anniversary of the death of my love, Roger. I was with him for almost 10 years. He was my everything. He was very sick. At the end his life he would not let me be near him. He made me leave. I miss him terribly.

I am so happy that James emoticon wanted to see me tonight. We are going for a drive and to a bar which includes shooting pool. That will be a nice distraction from my life. He knows about Roger because I have spoke of him. I just wandering if I should mention what today means to me?

On a happier note: I did get to talk to my best friend today. We talked for about 30 minutes. Even through it wasn't long enough for me I really enjoyed hearing her voice. I am counting down to the time I get to see her. I am so happy she and her family will be moving down emoticon here. 1 month 1 week and 4 days...I cannot wait!

I made 25 Christmas Cards over the weekend emoticon . I have another 15 to make and send out. emoticon I am almost done with my list! emoticon I am finishing up my Christmas shopping these weekend. emoticon I am super excited to have that out of the way as well. emoticon Last night while attending to my Christmas Cards emoticon , I watched Miracle on 34th Street. emoticon I cannot believe that movie has been around for 65 years. emoticon
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    My Goodness, you are having an emotional time just now.

    I hope that moving your grandmother will make things a bit easier for you, for spending time with her.

    I'm really sorry to hear about your anniversary today.
    It's great that you'll be going out with James. But I don't think anyone can advise you. I'd just say that, as you've already spoken to him about your previous relationship - maybe let him know about today's anniversary just in case you get a bit tears or weary. But not to make a huge thing about it - try to be calm and straightforward, and don't dwell on it. The message you need to get across is that you are loving and caring, and can be so for James - as evidenced by your feelings about Roger. You certainly do not want James to get any idea that you're still carrying a torch for Roger, or that James is "just" some sort of a make-do in the absence of Roger.
    It worries me a bit, though, that you are still calling Roger the " love of your life", while being so excited about this new relationship with James.

    Thanks for sharing with us.
    2018 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.