Sunday, December 09, 2012
I realize when I began this journey in August 2012 that I truly was out of shape, out of breath, and totally out of energy. Even though now the scale is really not moving like others on my team, I feel better than I have in years and I am sleeping sounder, which for me is an enormous accomplishment. I am loving working out and feeling the success in finishing an incredibly hard workout. This week will be my 5th Step Aerobics and Pilates classes at the base. I cannot even express how difficult it was my first day. The step itself scared me to death. I had fears of falling off the stupid thing and injuring myself. And let me tell you about this Pilates class. I have never, let me repeat never, done anything so exhausting. Last week (Wed) I felt like I was going to have to have help getting to my car! My legs were like rubber and my core was so sore it felt like it was being twisted. BUT... WOW WHAT A FEELING!
My eating since Thanksgiving has been horrible. I am way off of my fruits/veggies and am feeling sluggish. I'm still tracking my food and it is embarrassing when I look back through the week and see what I have put in my mouth.
As you can ascertain from this blog...I am trying to psych myself back into my rigorous routine. I am strongly trying to chide myself back to those first few weeks when I was fired up....
I will let you know if it worked or not.
I am not quitting. I am getting stronger. I am sleeping better. I CAN DO THIS!
(thanks for letting me vent...I really needed it)