I make alot of pictures like this one below as I am losing weight. I notice that I can be very pessimistic about my weight loss sometimes. I'm not doing well enough. I haven't lost enough weight. I'm a fraud- I don't even look like I've lost a lb! Those love handles aren't gone yet!!!!
But this picture is when I first realized that I WAS doing something. Its been very slow going for me. But no matter how the numbers are twisted (only weighing in after bm, or in the morning after 2 hrs of cardio, naked before breakfast- ect. I know I'm not the only person who does wierd stuff in the hopes of trying to ensure the "right" number on the scale!)
The moment I looked at these photos side by side, I realized I am changing. No couple lbs manipulation on the scale can take me from 231.8lbs to less than 200lbs. My efforts helped me to lose that weight. I know it doesn't count if I workout early in the morning before I weigh in. I know its cheating by 2lbs but it gives me hope. It gives me a speck of hope to keep pushing for. Sometimes you have to take all the crumbs of positivity that you can find.
Today I needed every shred of motivation I could gather. Because I realized that despite losing over 30lbs that not alot of changes have occurred in my body. I realize that I might have set the correct goal in the first place because I still have a long journey ahead of me. And that is not me being negative. Just me saying that while I am okay with my body now, it is not the body I hope for. I don't want to weigh some # on the scale just to be able to brag about it. I want strong arms that don't wobble. I want strong calves and I want to be able to run a marathon with my friend this coming summer. . .
This is the picture that inspired me today. I stepped on my wii for the body test (I have 2 of them and I really only lost 2lbs this week not 5) and this is what it said to me. I was shocked because I generally pushed myself for so much and generally fail these high goals of lose 15lbs in one month.
But this time I set a 2 week goal to lose 4lbs and what do you know I reached my goal and two days early! :-) Sad that this is the first time I have ever seen this screen!
But I looked at those numbers and I said to myself God Job! You have gone from 231.8lbs down to 194.2lbs. Thats a total loss of -37.6lbs I have never done so well before. Even though I can't SEE a bunch of changes I see how loose my clothes are. I see lose my size 14 jeans are. I used to wear my size 18 pants tight. Now my 18s are just play clothes. They don't come close to fitting. My size 16s are baggy. I MUST wear a belt or roll down the top if I want to stay decent at work. My 14s are loose but if I wear a long shirt then its safe to go without a belt. Each week I look at the scale and it doesn't move far. It just ticks down a little bit but when I look at my total lbs lost and I can't understand where it went. My 5yr old daughter is only 45lbs I have almost lost an entire Lexi? Weird.
So My Latest Measurement Comparison
August 2012 221lbs Size 16 Jeans
December 2012 194lbs Size 14 Jeans
Neck: -1 inch
Forearm: -1in (L) -0.5in(R)
Bicep: -1in(L) -0.75in(R)
Quads: -3in(L) -3.5in(R)
Calves: -1in(L) -1in(R)
Total Loss of 21.5inches all over my body :-)
Definitely feel like I am in the right frame of mind. The Greek yogurt in my refrigerator and soup for lunch would probably agree with me. . .