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The Right Frame of Mind

Saturday, December 08, 2012

I make alot of pictures like this one below as I am losing weight. I notice that I can be very pessimistic about my weight loss sometimes. I'm not doing well enough. I haven't lost enough weight. I'm a fraud- I don't even look like I've lost a lb! Those love handles aren't gone yet!!!!

But this picture is when I first realized that I WAS doing something. Its been very slow going for me. But no matter how the numbers are twisted (only weighing in after bm, or in the morning after 2 hrs of cardio, naked before breakfast- ect. I know I'm not the only person who does wierd stuff in the hopes of trying to ensure the "right" number on the scale!)

The moment I looked at these photos side by side, I realized I am changing. No couple lbs manipulation on the scale can take me from 231.8lbs to less than 200lbs. My efforts helped me to lose that weight. I know it doesn't count if I workout early in the morning before I weigh in. I know its cheating by 2lbs but it gives me hope. It gives me a speck of hope to keep pushing for. Sometimes you have to take all the crumbs of positivity that you can find.

Today I needed every shred of motivation I could gather. Because I realized that despite losing over 30lbs that not alot of changes have occurred in my body. I realize that I might have set the correct goal in the first place because I still have a long journey ahead of me. And that is not me being negative. Just me saying that while I am okay with my body now, it is not the body I hope for. I don't want to weigh some # on the scale just to be able to brag about it. I want strong arms that don't wobble. I want strong calves and I want to be able to run a marathon with my friend this coming summer. . .

This is the picture that inspired me today. I stepped on my wii for the body test (I have 2 of them and I really only lost 2lbs this week not 5) and this is what it said to me. I was shocked because I generally pushed myself for so much and generally fail these high goals of lose 15lbs in one month.

But this time I set a 2 week goal to lose 4lbs and what do you know I reached my goal and two days early! :-) Sad that this is the first time I have ever seen this screen!

But I looked at those numbers and I said to myself God Job! You have gone from 231.8lbs down to 194.2lbs. Thats a total loss of -37.6lbs I have never done so well before. Even though I can't SEE a bunch of changes I see how loose my clothes are. I see lose my size 14 jeans are. I used to wear my size 18 pants tight. Now my 18s are just play clothes. They don't come close to fitting. My size 16s are baggy. I MUST wear a belt or roll down the top if I want to stay decent at work. My 14s are loose but if I wear a long shirt then its safe to go without a belt. Each week I look at the scale and it doesn't move far. It just ticks down a little bit but when I look at my total lbs lost and I can't understand where it went. My 5yr old daughter is only 45lbs I have almost lost an entire Lexi? Weird.

So My Latest Measurement Comparison
August 2012 221lbs Size 16 Jeans
December 2012 194lbs Size 14 Jeans

Weight: -27lbs
Neck: -1 inch
Forearm: -1in (L) -0.5in(R)
Bicep: -1in(L) -0.75in(R)
Chest: -1in
Waist: -4in
Hips: -3.75in
Quads: -3in(L) -3.5in(R)
Calves: -1in(L) -1in(R)

Total Loss of 21.5inches all over my body :-)

Definitely feel like I am in the right frame of mind. The Greek yogurt in my refrigerator and soup for lunch would probably agree with me. . .
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  • EUEK098
    emoticon , everyone tells me am smaller but I never see the changes in my body. I recently took a picture in a dress I wore last year and the changes where there loud and clear, just keep at it and you'll see the changes soon.
    2666 days ago
  • CHYNNA81
    Wow that is great news...You are really changing. I can see it in your pictures. Keep up the great work. I can't wait to join you in onederland...Keep up the fantastic work Divas.
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    2668 days ago
    I love the measurement tool with Lexi (LOL)...and finding the added Wii tools. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2668 days ago
    Keep on tracks. Step by step you will reach all your goals. Enjoy the ride. You are looking great
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