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Last night my husband "drove me to drink" but, I know, that's NO EXCUSE !

Friday, December 07, 2012

Last night, my husband "drove me to drink" but, I know, that's NO EXCUSE ! I've been avoiding alcohol and have been doing very well with many alcohol-free days and an occasional drink some days. I'm 1/2 pound away from my short-term goal of 20 pounds lost which, I believe, has simply happened because of cutting back on the alcohol. I always ate a healthy diet. But last night, my husband was in a terrible mood from a couple nights of poor sleep, and "snapped" at me and "scolded" me when I really didn't do anything out of line. I felt he was being unfair and got a little teary-eyed. I asked our home-less friend to leave so that Johnny and I could talk. We had invited him to spend the night on our couch. Sorry - he'd have to go sleep in his tent in the woods. Don't worry - this is Florida and the weather is perfect right now. (High of 80 degrees in the afternoon and a low of 60 degrees at night). Well, then Johnny and I laid in bed and held hands and talked and he apologized for yelling at me, and everything was better but, unfortunately, I was really tempted to have a drink to calm down. I gave in. I drank a couple beers and played on the computer and then joined my husband back in bed. Now today, I'm not upset with HIM (he was just tired and cranky) but I am upset with MYSELF for giving in to the temptation to drink. I need to come up with something better to do when I'm upset instead of drinking. Prayer comes to mind. Next time I want to calm-down with alcohol, I'm going to try to remember to just PRAY until the urge passes. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me . . . . .
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    Thanks everyone for all your kind words and encouragement ! emoticon emoticon
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    Today is a new day. Remember how well you've been doing!
    2018 days ago
  • JAVA286
    Congrats on getting so close to your goal! That's awesome! I'm quite jealous ..I have yet to reach any goals lol!

    I know how you feel about caving in because of a fight. I usually go take a bubble bath and calm myself down. We have a running joke in my house that "the bubbles fix everything", from arguments to hangovers! I swear, drinking club soda out of a wine glass makes me feel better. Its all in my head and I don't mind it one bit!
    2018 days ago
    Don't be too hard on positive about how you dealt with the stress between you and you hubby, and also that you have a plan for the next time. If you live in Florida - could you go for a walk around the block? Keep up the good work.
    2018 days ago
    I am proud of you for making a plan for next time...however, don't beat yourself up so much. Acouple of beers won't de-rail you. You are doing great. And prayer really is going to help you over that hurdle next time. I too am avoiding alcohol. I just know that alcohol is part of the reason my weight just doesn't budge. Actually have found that I don't miss it. Not saying I will never drink it again, just not every night as had been my habit. Glad you and the DH are ok and just go forward knowing that your plan is the very best.. what better coach than GOD!!!!!
    2018 days ago
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