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Day 376

Friday, December 07, 2012

Had another good day yesterday..did have a couple of cookies after dinner, but that is much better than the binging that had been going on a while back.. Actually sat and watched a little evening TV and didn't even think about eating. This is a big deal for me.

Rode my bike for 15 hard minutes this morning, and another 5 to cool down..

Other than continuing to feel very sad about my sister's MIL, I would say I am doing well. The sadness is definitely normal, I know, as I feel the loss myself but also see the impact on my sister, her husband and of course, my niece, and even my own son. Funny, my sister has been talking a lot about when our dad passed, it was many years ago, on Dec. 23..but as she says, Christmas was done, it wasn't like there was any need to shop or wrap, or any of that stuff at that point. Even though we could choose to do the same this year, or I should say NOT do the shopping and wrapping, something also feels wrong about that.. Just have to find that happy, or better yet comfortable, median, where you do what you absolutely must but not more.

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    We dealt with that two years ago when Grampie passed away. We had the memorial service and then went back to the house and had the first of "Grampie's Christmases". It is tough when the loss is so fresh, but being together with family will make all the difference! Have a great weekend!
    2915 days ago
    Yes.... it's difficult with the loss so fresh. Hugs!

    HUGE CONGRATS on the TV time without snacking! I'm doing a little better with that this week as I've got my cross-stitch out so I can pick it up. Will help once the reality shows are done for the season...I find I need to watch them more than just listen. Good thing I only watch 3 of them. LOL
    2915 days ago
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    Oh I know Sonia and Annie, and I so totally agree with you both..and I am a big believer in knowing they are right with us.. but as you say, those moments arise when you just think of the loss, or of the fact that they were still physically with us, and those moments are a lot more frequent when we've just lost them.. And if you knew Nana, you would realize how right you are in saying she would be telling us to move forward.. and we will move forward, it just still feels a little raw..even knowing that she is having a glorious reunion with those who have gone before her..including her own husband, and my own dad..so it's bittersweet, you know? Thanks for your kind and soothing words, though, you are such wonderful friends.. emoticon
    2915 days ago
    You are doing sooo gr8 with your focus, T, and I did read yesterday's blog but had one of those blur-of-a-day days, and didn't take anymore time of SP. I am THRILLED your TV time never had a snack attack!! That really IS a big deal.

    Your sister's MIL, wouldn't want little T, your niece, your sister... or any of your family looking back on this Christmas, or any other Christmas' to come, with overwhelming grief. I don't think your dad would either. Even if they aren't IN the physical 'realm' anymore, I am sure our loved one's spirits WANT to see all the *B*E*S*T* of life (not death) celebrated, imo. Even though I'm still *here* in this 'realm' I would HOPE to make that crystal CLEAR to all who may know/love/miss me... that there will be no weeping or sorrow, because... there's plenty of THAT already in this world, and my ONLY wish would be for sweetest joy and gentlest peace in the hearts of those I 'kissed' goodbye. emoticon
    2915 days ago
    Way to go Tina with the exercise, you are really make it part of your lifestyle now!

    Though it is sad to lose someone that you you care for dearly, you know they are always in your thoughts/memories. I feel you never lose them. But, then there are the moments that you do wish they were more than memories.

    2915 days ago
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