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Taking Time To Acknowledge the NSV's

Thursday, December 06, 2012

This day sucked. Consequently, I've decided I need to cheer myself up (and on) by taking some time to list out some NSV's. Pardon me while I toot my horn.

emoticon TOOT TOOT!! The shirts that I've been wearing to work out have room in them now.
emoticon TOOT TOOT!! I've gone from running a painfully slow 15:36 to a slightly less painfully slow 13:39 this evening... and that is only 8 runs in to being back.
emoticon TOOT TOOT!! I had the crappiest day I've had in a long time and I didn't eat to cope.
emoticon TOOT TOOT!! I went running to relieve my stress tonight instead of eating out.
emoticon TOOT TOOT!! I'm starting to notice patterns to the "why's" behind my eating.
emoticon TOOT TOOT!! I've done a better job at not catastrophizing things in my life.
emoticon TOOT TOOT!! I've made and brought my lunch almost everyday for the last two weeks.
emoticon TOOT TOOT!! I've started to find a reasonable cut off time at work since I know the rest will be there tomorrow.

Most importantly?

emoticon TOOT TOOT!! I haven't given up on myself and I've been consistent. It's been the hardest thing... to give myself grace, not hold myself to my old standards, to compare where I was and where I am. To allow myself a 25 minute workout because I'm exhausted and don't want to push to 30 minutes. To enjoy a scoop of ice cream with my staff and feel satisfied. To not swing all over God's green earth with my calories intake. To never let myself get too hungry. These are all really big, really hard, REALLY important things in my journey back.

It's been kinder and gentler this time. Not as regimented, not as unforgiving. I'm really, really proud of myself... I wish it hadn't taken me so long to try again, but my journey was different this time around. New dimensions, new discoveries and I'm hopeful. Amen.
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  • PJH2028
    I am really really proud of you, too, dear friend. Reading this I feel the shifts and changes you speak of and am touched and happy for your acknowledgement of self. Gosh, I love and believe in all of you. xop
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    Very cool. Kudos!
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  • SHEILA1505
    Big hugs xxx
    1961 days ago
    Paula, happy to hear this, I think it's actual central to the journey to treat ourselves with kindess, compassion and forgiveness. Because we are human, and we will mess up, so its easier to pick ourselves back up if we meet ourselves with love instead of bashing ourselves up side the head. The latter has been my modus operandi for so long, I am slowly trying to do the former. Happy to hear that you are too!
    1961 days ago
    What a great blog! Is it okay for me to say I'm so proud of you???? Didn't eat to cope with a crappy day? Didn't catastrophize? (I like that word, by the way.) All the things you listed are really, really good. This is more inspiring to me than a 100-pound weight loss. Really.
    1961 days ago
    That is SUPER! I will get out my trumpet and play a fanfare...
    BR>I don't play the trumpet...
    Maybe I can SING ONE! Hoya toho-oh, hoya toho-oh, yo hooooooooooooooohh!
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    1961 days ago
    Toot Toot!!!! Way To go! By the way...I call farting "Tooting".....LOL :)
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