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I can't believe I have Fallen so far from Fitness.

Thursday, December 06, 2012

I just let myself go..completely. I had a death, an almost death (ICU for a month) a house fire, but honestly though these all happened to Father's, brother's and sister's they did not happen to me. I was under stress I turned to food. I spent far more than I should have traveling, donating, giving, and shrugged my shoulders saying what else could I do.

Maybe nothing as far as the travel, the donations, the expenses that come with one family event, let alone three, BUT I could have held on to my workouts and eating correctly. I could have HELD ON to my integrity instead of driving into fast food.

One thing I did do, without even realizing it. I quit drinking. I do not have a drinking problem, but I did drink now and then. I don't anymore. I am not saying I will never have another glass of red wine with a dinner, but I am no longer interested in hanging out at the bar, or meeting friends for drinks.

I would rather spend my time with my family. I would rather meet my friends at a zumba class or a Holiday show. Maybe I am "old" at 44, but I really could care less about meeting friends and ordering round after round. It seems like a waste of time, lets go, see, do...but let's not sit, drink, and accomplish nothing.

i am starting over and I feel like I am literally PICKING UP THE Challenge before me. I am sick of this damn weight! Just SICK of it.

Did I mention I was actually physically sick from Sept...until, well I actually am taking antibiotics right now. LOL. DID you know obese people get sick more? I did not, but it stands to reason their immune systems would be compromised. Did you also know that my mobility is becoming compromised by lack of use?

Move it or lose it really does apply. I am talking walking. Oh, I can walk, but I find myself telling my son to hurry on ahead to his basketball game, so he is not late waiting for me to make it. My 5th grader is faster than me. People walk around me, impatient and in a hurry. I struggle with tying my shoes and I feel a tightness in my thighs. It is a struggle to bend over and pick up a paper I dropped.

When did this happen? I have to take control and I MUST do it now, otherwise it could really be worse. I used to do YOGA for goodness sakes. I am getting back on track. This is my promise to myself.
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    I am right there with you. I swear this is a conversation I had with myself just a few days ago. Let's do this.
    1992 days ago
    Hi Hon, I KNOW how you feel!! You described how Ive been too!! I can tell you that in just the few months that I have been on Spark, and lost the little weight that I have, I feel soooo much better!!!! Just a little weight...imagine when we get more off!!!! I can't wait!! But we all CAN do this together...I seriously don't know what I would do without my new friends on here!! I really don't!! If you ever need to talk or whatever...my inbox is always open...we can do this together!! emoticon

    1995 days ago
  • JOYFUL78
    emoticon I promise you that TOGETHER we can do anything.

    You have friends here now at this wonderful place called Spark People.... the love and devotion and just understanding and companionship here is contagious.

    Thru thick and thin, ups and downs we are HERE for one another.

    welcome home to Team Indy and everyone who loves you at Spark People,


    Now, lets DO this! emoticon
    1995 days ago
  • JOYFUL78
    ((((((((((( dear sweet angel ))))))))))))

    remember you are NOT alone

    we are here with You, hugsssssssssssss emoticon

    emoticon sings the Michael Jackson song to you called:

    ~ emoticon You are Not Alone emoticon
    you are not alone,
    we are here with you,
    though we're far apart,
    you're always in our hearts,
    you are NOT alone. emoticon
    1995 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/7/2012 2:22:24 PM
  • TESS504
    You can do it...dont' give up.

    "The pain of Self-displine will never be as great as the pain of regret" emoticon
    1996 days ago
    You are a very giving person!! Don't forget to give to yourself!! You are just as important as anyone else in your life!!
    1996 days ago
  • CIPHER1971
    emoticon and you will.

    I am really sorry that you have had such a tough few months, but so inspired that you are going to finish December strong

    Take care
    1996 days ago
    My friend Jane, I know you can do this! Give yourself a big hug, dust yourself off and start with one good healthy choice. Then build on the good choices you make each day!

    Make a new plan or resurrect the old one - just start!

    I am here for you! emoticon
    1996 days ago
    Happy journey! emoticon
    1996 days ago
    Thank you so much for sharing your challenges with your struggle to lose weight and get physically fit..
    I completely understand how you feel because I am going through the exact same thing. The only difference is that I am much older than what you are. I encourage you to please try your best to stay on the right track. Trust me, you wouldn't want to get as old as I am and have the sort of problems you are facing with your weight and fitness issues now. You are smart to recognize this while you are still young.
    Wishing you all the best and hoping your day will be a good one. emoticon
    1996 days ago
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