Progress in the Mind
Tuesday, December 04, 2012
I've been MIA lately from SparkPeople, but not from trying to figure out how to make my way along this journey to a healthier "me".
The past year has been full of sicknesses. My surgeon told my DH after my surgery last year that my defenses would be down, and boy did he know what he was talking about! Everything from infected teeth that had to be pulled, to sinus infections, to h-pilori (I know I didn't spell that right:-). I haven't done very well - at all - at keeping my focus on losing weight - I've just been trying to get well:-)
My doctor sent me to an ENT specialist recently, since my migraines are mostly triggered by sinus headaches. I figured we could focus on the sinus headaches, and that would help the migraines. Well, I found out that I don't have any sinuses where I've been getting what I thought were sinus headaches!
I also learned that what I've been thinking was allergies (okay, I "do" have allergies, but a couple of symptons aren't due to my allergies) was actually acid reflux. Talk about a shocker - I don't have heartburn but perhaps once per year!
Because of that, one of the things I can do is to avoid caffeine and carbonation. In a nutshell for me: Cokes! So I went off them for a few days and one of those symptoms was already better. I guess that really was making it worse! So now my goal is to get and stay off the Cokes - not just for weight loss, but for my health. Nothing like a real "something" instead of a perhaps-one-day "something" to help get focused:-)
Not that I've been perfect. Take today. I decided yesterday that I'll log my food (on paper, because I don't always have ready access to SP). Today, I was feeling more than draggy - I wasn't sure I could make it around the office, my legs were so weak. (It might be the beta blocker my dr. put me on last week for migraines) I was craving a Coke and Five Guys in the worst way. Because of the weakness (it actually kinda scared me), I decided to give it a try. Yes, I did enjoy it:-) The surprising thing is the amount of energy I had. So I learned something else today. I'm not sure where that weakness came from, but I need to learn a different behavior to fix it than going to Five Guys for lunch:-)
I read several blogs today and they confirmed what I've been thinking about. One person blogged about being down 95 pounds over the last 3 years. That helped me to realize that even if it takes me 3-5 years to take off this weight, it's okay - as long as I make progress, it's okay.
Another one talked about learning to maintain your weight before starting on a weight-loss program. This is (to me:-) actually learning to make this a lifestyle, as opposed to a diet program.
Someone else talked about taking the strengths he uses daily in his work life, and applying those strengths to his weight loss journey (i.e., setting goals, making a plan, making adjustments as needed, etc.).
So, I'm going to start with my baby steps and put the past behind me. I'm (mostly!) off Cokes and I'm drinking lots of water. I'm also getting more active in the evenings - not exactly tons of physical activity, but "doing" stuff instead of just watching TV (gotta start somewhere:-) - the first step in being more active physically. In addition, I have started tracking my food - the first step to making additional changes.
The mind really is the battlefield:-) and this is a battle and war I intend to WIN!