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It's amazing how 5 pounds makes me feel.

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

As I started this journey, I was excited to see that weight falling off and the pictures that came with it. I felt great when I hit 200 and felt grand having lost 20% of myself.

I am still under the 20%, but just barely. I got all the way down to 176.4. I haven't see it since. I'm hovering around 180, as of this morning, I was back to 182. I know this is kinda maintenance mode as I have been hovering around the 180 for a couple of months now, not losing in the grand scale I was to begin with.

Under 180, I have little problem with my looks, or at least I don't feel as bad about it as I do above 180. Today I feel fat, even though I know I've lost nearly 50 pounds and haven't had a big weight gain since. There is still this belly hanging out all floppy and laughing at me.

I am not going to get back into the weight loss thing until after the holidays are over, as long as I can maintain until January, I can fell good about this journey. This last 30 pounds are just not going anywhere near as quickly as the first 50 went.

I'm feeling overwhelmed with this last holiday of the season, seeing that I get to see all the family that we visit or visits us this time around, even if I don't get along with them all that well.

The cold weather doesn't help either, as I haven't been taking my daily walks as far or as often as I normally do. I have plenty of other indoor things I can do, but I just don't get around to them. I know that I can do this and I will be right back to tracking everything and exercising as soon as I'm done with all this break from schedule.

I am still on my "break" from all the hard work it takes to keep on going in the right direction on the scale, but I'm not going to let the number rule my feelings. As soon as the turn of the year comes, I'm back on the losing journey again. I want to make sure I'm back to that 50 pounds lost number when my year comes up on January 10th.
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  • TANYA602
    You're at a point right now where you need a break, and we get that. You can be so proud of how far you have come, and the healthy habits you have learned. Don't give up on any of this. We hit those plateaus, we hit the holidays, and you have the tools you need to get back into the groove of losing the weight you want to lose. We're here when you need us.
    1965 days ago
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    Keep good choices around you, you CAN maintain and you WILL!
    You've got the right attitude and I know you will succeed. We are here for you on this journey, and you've got the tools to maintain the next few weeks successfully.
    1966 days ago
    Being in a maintenance mode but not done getting fit with you. I too feel almost more fat because there is a fit frame under the rolls now that makes the fat seem like it doesn't fit me anymore. I find myself debating constantly over what focus I should use to feel good about my shape at this point - cardio or Strength training - of course I need both.

    Enjoy the holidays. Keep moving. Get ready for the next push.

    1966 days ago
  • FRAN0426
    We who live in cold winter climate have a challenge if your doing a lot of out door walking . I for one don't enjoy being out in the cold and wind in the winter, thankfuly. I can go to the gym, but even then there are the days that its to darn cold to want to leave the house. Keep maintaining and the break may be helpful for your home stretch after the holidays. As for that sagging stomach---I hear ya and know all about it---seems like those abdominals are very tough to get suck back in.
    1966 days ago
    So proud of you for being able to maintain for so long. It's good to set a goal for when you will be ready to get back to working on losing weight again. When your start date comes make sure you don't put it off. You've done so well so far. emoticon
    1966 days ago
  • MISSG180
    I'm struggling, too. It's very frustrating. But I'm trying to keep up with the fitness, at least.
    1966 days ago
    You have done an awesome thing for yourself with the weight loss and self care. I hear what you are saying about this time of the year. I just started in October, but it does look difficult to keep wt loss work going. Maintenance is my goal at this time as well. emoticon
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    1966 days ago
    You just have so much to be proud of!! A break might just be the right idea..just don't get back to sloppy eating! Your 50 pound mark is there, and you will see it again!
    1966 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    emoticon emoticon I know it is hard, but look how far you have come.
    If you need a break until after the holidays, just keep eating healthy and then you will be ready when January rolls around. Keep your head up, you have a lot to be proud of! emoticon
    1966 days ago
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