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Terribly Sad

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

November was a horrible month for me!!! So glad it's over, but it doesn't look like December is going to be any better!!! The first week of the month (November) I spent moving into our new rental house so we could get out of the horrible house we were living in and move closer to my sick mother. I think it took me the whole month to even get unpacked and then on Monday November 26th my mother passed away. She lost her battle to breast cancer!

I was driving to work this morning thinking about how terribly sad I feel every single day, knowing my mother is gone is taking the life right out of me. I just feel like I don’t care anymore….So driving to work this morning talking to myself in my head I told myself you’ve got to start taking care of yourself again, Mama wouldn’t want you to lay down and give up on anything, she was a warrior and she would want the same for her family! So in order to distract myself from the pain of losing her I am going to crawl back on the weight loss wagon and do what it takes to start losing some more weight, because I know I’ve gained some back from November…I was eating crap and not exercising a bit! I need all the support I can get right now!

Thanks everyone for reading my blog and listening to my blabber!

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    Oh darlin'...prayers for you. So sorry...but so glad your mother is still influencing you to healthy choices. Mothers who love their kids want the best for them. Keep Sparkin'!!
    1992 days ago
    I am sorry for the loss of your mother. I know how terribly hard it is for you. I lost my dad to lung cancer back in May and still have a hard time.But he was my greatest inspiration when I started losing weight that I had to keep going.I know the holidays are tough but she would be proud of you fighting to change your health and I am sure many other things. Know she is always with you in your heart!
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    1993 days ago
    Your Mom would be so very proud of you. Keep moving forward. You CAN do this! BIG HUGS for you!!
    1993 days ago
    Losing a mother is one of the hardest things we face in our lives. I was in a funk for a very long time and even though it has been 7 years, I still miss my mom almost every day. The holidays are the hardest. That first Christmas I cried more tears than I thought any person could produce. You have my virtual hugs and support.

    Be gentle and understanding with yourself. Be the person she would want you to be and remember that soon you will remember your mom with a smile. The people who affect us most profoundly in life almost always leave a trail of warm memories for us to bask in after they are gone.

    1993 days ago
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    So sorry to hear about your mom losing the fight against cancer. It is always hard to lose a loved one and it might get easier with time, but your mom will always live on in your heart.
    I wish you all the best and I am confident that you will be able to achieve your goals. Your mom would be very proud of you.
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    1993 days ago
    I'm sorry to hear about you mom. My mom is battle leukemia right now and she finds out whether or not she has to have chemo on the 12th. But you're right, she would want you to succeed when it comes to your goals. Hope you have a better month in Decemeber!
    1993 days ago
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