Tuesday, December 04, 2012
Have combined staff meeting this AM in our other office....Brainstorming for 2012. We are supposed to come with ideas to grow our agency. My ideas are ideas to make business run better and that would cause more outlay of monies and hubby said that's not the kind of things he's wanting. So plan to keep my mouth shut and add things as we see what he says. Not thinking he really wants ideas...he wants to tell us what he wants to do and have us buy into it. So we'll wait and see.
Last Bible Study class tonight. Been a good study...made me more aware of my growing more "unglued" at things. I know part of it is the crazy schedule I keep. It's wearing me down. I feel torn in all directions. Hubby puts pressure on me to do things with him and the car club...I want to spend time with him...feel pressure to do things with Mom as she doesn't get out unless we take her and we "never" take her out shopping...things I want to do with the church and things others want to pile on me to do....then there are things I want to get done around the house and do for me. Not sure how to get off the roller coaster right now. I know the season piles pressure on me too! Want to get everything done for the holidays and my daughter coming to visit.
Working on resume to get it sent out this week. Trying to find time to spend on updating it.
Not trying to complain. Know I need to cut somethings out and not feel so guilty. When I tell my hubby No I don't want to go with you...he always looks so sad. Every weekend he has us booked for things. He doesn't realize I can't keep up the pace and have everything else done too! I just run out of steam.
I know I carry a lot of stress from work around with me. I wake up thinking what I have to get done at work. That's why I love to just get away for a weekend or few days. It feels good not to have a schedule.
I have a passion for teaching Ladies Bible Studies yet I'm glad this one is over. It makes me accountable to stay in the Word. Not sure if I want to do one after the holidays or not. Usually the studies hit me right in the face with things I'm struggling with.
I need to carve out some time to reflect on 2012 and sets some goals for 2013 and see where I can cut back on things to slow things down some.
Off to make it a great day!