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Need to Make Some Changes

Sunday, December 02, 2012

My accountability for the last two days have been good. I have gotten in exercise both days. Today, I did Leslie Sansone's 4 mile walk and Walk it Out. My nutrition has been pretty good. Not outstanding, but not horrible. I have been working straight through without a day off.

Herein lies the rub. I need to change that. I finally said no to a buyer who wanted to go only on Friday nights. I finally decided that we do not work Friday nights. I have always felt guilty about leaving my teaching job and felt that I wasn't entitled to a day off because of the income we lost. Brian always reminds me of the money I made. I don't think he does it on purpose. It is just him. Right now, I am pretty close to earning what I netted as a teacher, but I am really running myself down. I am mentally exhausted. I am trying to keep all the pieces together for everyone and feel like I should never ignore a call, but I am afraid that it is starting to hurt my health.

I think my ulcers are flaring up. I can see signs of the colitis. I know I need to up the colitis medication by one pill a day. That should take care of it as long as I start taking care of myself. I love my husband dearly, but he is very good at making one feel guilty. As he points out, he is working two jobs as he does all of the showings with me. Yet, when we went to the doctor, I ended up on blood pressure meds and his blood pressure was 116/60.

He always says that I don't give him credit for doing anything. That is not the case. I do give him credit. Yes, the guy knows his houses, but he never worries about anything or takes it upon himself to deal with anything as he knows I will do it. When we met with my son's DVR counselor, he made one statement for the entire 1.5 hours we were there. When we met with my son's psychiatrist, she asked him one question, and he couldn't answer it. I think I am worn out. I know I need a vacation, but we can't afford it. We finally started putting money back on the equity line for our home. We are finally getting ahead. I just don't know how long I can keep up this pace.

Once, again, you are all wonderful and thank you for listening. I am really hoping to have a day real estate free tomorrow, but I don't see it happening realistically. I will do my best to keep it to a minimum.
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    I wrote a blog about this not long ago...something about WHO is the smarter of two women? The Wonder Woman...which I'd definitely place you and myself in..that is the 'do all'...'be all'...take care of EVERYTHING in the universe...just because she can...OR the Barbie doll type that concentrates SOLELY on herself to look cute and trophy like, and feign absolute that her MAN can control the universe.

    I always used to think WW was the better choice...but I've gotten older, wiser, and more worn out...I'd NOW opt for Barbie every time!

    Maybe my next lifetime! emoticon

    Sit down with the hubs just as I did with mine not long ago and let him know you are wearing out..then he'll have it ALL on his hands. That hopefully will get some action out of him. SERIOUSLY...DO IT...DO IT NOW! emoticon
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    Comment edited on: 12/5/2012 8:38:56 AM
    Wow, our house market doesn't sound nearly as good as yours and we're supposed to be one of the hottest areas in the country. As you build your real estate business you will make more money since you have what it takes. Have a good talk with your hubbie and let him know how his little comments make you feel. He may not know.
    2000 days ago
    emoticon Sounds like you need a little break. Maybe set some time aside for yourself --- take a nice luxurious bath, or read a book for a bit. Maybe you dont get a whole day vacation, but at least a little relaxation. I can see that you work hard, you deserve a little for yourself as well.

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    2000 days ago
    You absolutely deserve a break, even if it's just a day of pampering yourself. Take 1 day and do whatever you want. Sleep in, window shop, get a mani/pedi, or just read a book!

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    2000 days ago
    You're wise to take a break . . . you need it and so does Jc (he needs to see you more, as much as you need to see him). You could use a girlfriend to run away with for a 3-day weekend. You definitely need some you, JC, famiiy, and girlfriend down time so you can be you without all the added stressors. Hug, hug -- Evelyn
    2000 days ago
    Please, take care of you! Maybe you need to sit your husband down and have a talk with him? Just a thought. emoticon
    2000 days ago
    You need to take of yourself. You won't make any money if you are in the hospital
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  • JUSTME29
    I don't think one evening a week off is too much to ask. One of the keys to being your own boss it to treat yourself as you would any other employee. Would you expect an employe to put in the hours and under the same conditions that you have been working? I don't think so. You won't stay ahead long if your health fails and you end up out of commission altogether for a while.

    Oh, and as to the money you made as a teacher - I'm a teacher. Unless your district paid a lot more than mine I'd be surprised if you're not making even money as an realtor.
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    Comment edited on: 12/2/2012 8:38:54 PM
    small steps. emoticon
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