I have been writing over the past few months that I put the scale away. It's still on its shelf but I did pull it out and check on November 1. Before I checked, I made sure that I said out loud, "Whatever this says is not going to determine how my day goes." I checked again a couple of days ago; before I looked, I reminded myself that the number on the scale was not going to determine how my day was going to go. I already knew by how my clothes were fitting and how I felt at the end of the day (no bloat!)
7 pounds gone during November, the lowest weight I've been all year. And remembering what I had just told myself, seeing that number on the scale could not determine my day? (I think it has to work both ways.)
I will continue to make good choices and forgive myself for bad ones but still, there was a lot of spring in my step that day. This is a feeling I crave - - do I crave this feeling more than I crave peanut butter? I found my mind starting to work ahead of myself instead of just worrying about today - how long will it take to lose 30 more pounds so all my clothes fit again?
STOP. Make good choices TODAY. Tomorrow will come tomorrow.
I've been mostly Dairy-free since October 17, almost 7 weeks now. This is from my journal on 10/17: "I was laying in bed this morning trying to figure out what I needed at the grocery store and the only thing was shredded cheese. Could I live without it for a few days? DING DING DING Do I need it at all?"
It's been an evolving process. I've been researching and tweaking over the past 3 months and what's working for me might not work for you. But October 17 was my AHA day when all of a sudden things started making sense to me. I have discovered (or rediscovered) all the other foods that give me adequate calcium so little by little, dairy products are being removed. (And me, a Wisconsinite - America's Dairyland!!)
Last Sunday, I turned the TV on in the afternoon and found that it was PBS fundraising week. I usually skip over the fundraising-week programs (they just look like fancier infomercials to me) but I left it on because I didn't feel like making any choices. (Once in a while, I just like the talking.) The program that was just starting was "Drop 7 Foods, Feel Better Fast with JJ Virgin." I always view these types of programs with a certain degree of suspicion but I can't get this one off my mind. She talked of food allergies and foods we don't really need to be healthy; this is her list:
5. Sugar and artificial sweeteners
I'm not going to try and condense all she said during the program (there was a lot of information) but what was important to me is that without realizing it, I had already started eliminating these very things from what I ate daily. I'm reading labels again; sugar is everywhere!! The only thing on the list that I haven't addressed yet is eggs.
It's worth a watch. I'm not planning on buying anything or starting any "diet." I'm working with what works for me. What watching this program did for me is cause me to THINK again, to think about everything that goes in my body. As I was channel-surfing yesterday afternoon, another fundraiser was on PBS (something about the keeping the brain healthy as we age) and, while I didn't stay to watch, there was one line that registered for me: "If you had a million-dollar racehorse, would you feed it junk?"
The scale is back in the closet. The scale of balance will be my guide again until the end of the year. I will check again but it continues to be not so important any more. To me, that is the most important thing I have achieved since September. Yes, I was excited about the number on the scale but that was yesterday and today is a new day.
Today is here; a day to make good choices, one at a time (and forgive myself if I make some not-so-good choices.)
(but still, 7 POUNDS??