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Discouraged. Back out of One-derland

Friday, November 30, 2012

I hadn't officially weighed in since November 9th until this morning. With all the craziness of Thanksgiving break, holiday shopping, and NaNoWriMo I didn't want to stress myself out by looking at the scales too much. Ok, I did look at the scales but I kept telling myself it was "fluke" and I didn't write it down.

On Monday night I met my NaNoWriMo goal. I have been feeling EXHAUSTED ever since. I think the 4-5 hours of sleep a night has finally caught up to me. Either that or it's the cold and snow. Whatever it is, I haven't written since Monday. I knew I wasn't going to write on Tuesday, but I had planned to write on Wednesday and Thursday. I haven't been sleeping either. I just haven't been writing. Sigh.

So today is the last day of the month, and I checked the scale this morning and I am at 200.4. I am very discouraged. I have eaten as well as I could, exercised as well as I could (even doing strength training when I really felt tired, and of course I did a lot of walking). Really I have not been a bum. My writing time came from when I would have been sleeping or playing games or reading Facebook. It was not done on prime-exercise time.

But there you have it. I'm over the 200 mark again and I hate myself for it.

I know it's temporary and all of that, but I really don't want to end the year higher than I finished it last year. I just don't. This bugs me a lot. And that story isn't done yet, and I'm tired.

Sorry to be Debbie Downer. This is just where I'm at this morning.
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    Get back on track and lose that .4! You can do this! I want your next blog to be about how you are back in onederland!
    2323 days ago
    Rebecca, don't be so hard on yourself. Lack of sleep and stress can cause the body to do strange things. I know you will do this and I bet you will be back in onederland by the end of December. I'll be here cheering you on. You CAN do it.

    hugs...Mary Anne
    2330 days ago
  • DROSS0616
    Hang in there Rebecca. I completely understand where you are coming from. I have been having trouble this year with getting the scale to go down (sometimes it heads in the other direction).
    Maybe its the stress that is playing with your weight and lack of sleep more than your nutrition and exercise?
    Look at the other victories you have made this year and hopefully things will start to turn around for you!
    2330 days ago
    Hang on in there.
    2333 days ago
    My weight fluctuates 3 pounds one way or the other on a daily basis. It may be totally different the next time you step on there.

    We are all human. Just start over. We all get to start over multiple times in this journey.
    2333 days ago
  • WINNIE1978
    2333 days ago
    No hating yourself allowed! Just a little set back.. life is full of them... the trick is noticing it before it gets even worst, and getting right back into the game!!

    2333 days ago
  • 4CYNDI
    It is tough to balance everything in life, especially when your focus slips from one thing to another. The scale is a snapshot. A little reminder of where you are in the journey of WHO you want to be. You finished one of your goals time to restart the focus on your healthier goals.
    2333 days ago
    Everyone here has very good points... and it may or may not help to know this, but I am right there with you. I made it to Onederland a couple of month ago and it was glorious... and then I gained. Almost overnight!!! I got back up to 208 and I just yo-yo now between 202 and 208. It's disgusting, discouraging and I too hate myself for it.

    But we are intelligent women and we know we shouldn't hate ourselves for this. But I do know how you feel.

    We CAN do this again! Have faith, keep trying! Don't give up! Message me if you need me! :)
    2333 days ago
    Lack of sleep and being on the run does hurt you BUT you are so very little over that "one-underland" you will get there

    I am happy to say I am maintaining even with the cookies I am baking but need to get into more a routine once I am feeling up to it. More exercise will help me and I am pretty sure the Christmas cookies are just about done! But then on to the cakes BUT one thing is I will NOT be eating a slice of cake every day

    Cut yourself some slack - take a deep breath - get some rest and you will do FINE

    2333 days ago
    Dear Rebecca, I'm sorry you're so disappointed with yourself. The weight may be related to lack of sleep, and probably you just have to keep at it and the plateau will be over. Or change your exercise routine. You already know all the tricks.
    I hope you'll be patient with yourself just as you would be with a dear friend. And the story may not be finished yet, but you did reach your nanowrimo goal. So that's quite a progress. I'd be proud of myself if I were you. It's hard to win at all fronts.
    2333 days ago
    I'm sorry to hear about the gain. But don't hate yourself. Think about this. You made it into the 100's before, so you know you can do it. You just keep trying. Instead of beating yourself up, think of the elation you felt when you hit onederland before and strive to have that feeling again. And hey, you made lots of good decisions for the month. You ate well, you exercised. you did strength training when you were tired and you did lots of walking. And you said you haven't been a bum and you did lots of writing too. Sounds like a GREAT list of accomplishments for the month. That's what you should focus on. Cheer up, I have faith in you and I'm proud of everything you did accomplish. Who cares about some number on the scale (ok, I admit, I focus on that number too for myself)? When I don't like the direction of the scale, I just remind myself where it would be if I ate crap and never exercised. In the end, I'd rather take care of my body and not see a good number than do nothing for myself.

    I hope things start to look up over the weekend! Take care!
    2333 days ago
  • RLT5089
    Sorry to hear this. There is a trainer called JillFit who talks a lot about how hormones and chemicals in your body affect weight and one of the main things that can affect hormones negatively is lack of sleep and stress. Maybe if you get those things Straightened out it will help. Either way you're only .4 out of onederland so I have no doubts you will be back very soon. Also congratulations on all your writing accomplishments lately. Don't forget to praise yourself for non-scale victories!
    2333 days ago
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