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Finding my true self…

Thursday, November 29, 2012

I think one of the reasons why I have not been able to say I am completely happy with myself is because I do not know what my calling in life is. I do not have a real passion for any activity or task I currently do. Is this possible? I look at others around me and I can see their passion for cooking, teaching, dancing, painting, selling, etc. What about me? How is it that I have not found that one thing that can get me excited?

I certainly feel that this is what truly affects me when I over eat or do not eat healthy. I think I am just bored at life so I eat… In an attempt to kill my boredom I decided to do card making. It has turned out to be great and expensive. However, it is not my real passion. I happen to be good at it, or at least that’s what my friends say, but I am having a hard time finding a passion that I can make into a career.

Maybe what is making me think of this the most is that I have a wonderful fiancé who happens to have his dream job and loves it. I can see how he is happy and I want the same type of happiness.

So today I have decided to do some volunteer work… I will start looking for jobs I can do in my spare time and see what interests me. I have some interest in possibly teaching, I seem to be good a coaching other, so why not explore the options.

Anyway, going a bit long on this one… In conclusion, I need to find Jenel in the midst of it all and still make a living, be a good future wife, be a good sister, be a good daughter, and be good to me. Am I asking for a lot? :)


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    Don't give up on finding that passion, lady. It is never too late to discover what your calling is in life. It's out there! It took me until I was 26 to find out what mine was, and that was just earlier this year.
    2005 days ago
    love the pic
    Try to find passion for somthing but it does not need to make you money. we work to eat. you can find somthing fun you enjoy maybe a sport or general hobby that you nca be passionate about.
    liked the post!
    2005 days ago
    I totally understand! I was lamenting about how I am lacking the same passions about my work that my sister and mother have about teaching. I have a few hobbies, but nothing to make a career out of, so I just focus on them. I spend probably 90% of my spare time reading manga. :) Just do what you want to do, no matter how trivial, and you'll be happy.
    2005 days ago
  • GAL7288
    You know I'm in the same path you are in, sometimes I think we overwhelm ourselves trying to figure out what it is that we need to be doing. I think volunteering will open new opportunities to meet new people, do new things and maybe inspire you to find what you are looking for. Sometimes, I think, we look to broad when it is the small things that really inspire. Good luck and I hope you find what you are looking for. :)
    2005 days ago
    Beautiful photo
    2005 days ago
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