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Starting over for the final time again

Thursday, November 29, 2012

I'm really sick and tired of starting over. I'll do really good for a couple of months and then I slide right back to my old habits. I make excuses like 'Gregg keeps ordering pizza because we don't want to cook.' But they are just excuses. I don't have to eat the pizza. I shouldn't eat it and not just because it's so high in calories and fat. It makes me sick. I'm lactose intolerant and the sauce makes my reflux act up. I know if I eat it I'll be sick all night, but I eat it because I'm to lazy to fix anything else to eat. I HAVE to get my food under control. I HAVE to workout/train more consistently. This doing it for a week or two and then nothing isn't working and isn't healthy. I'm getting sick all the time, AGAIN. I'm sick right now. I have severe sinusitis and an upper respiratory infection. I can't walk through my house without the coughing starting and that starts the wheezing. I'm on meds and am starting to get better but I'm frustrated. I can't go run or do anything active that I talk about doing.

So today I'm starting over for the final time.

When I say I'm starting over I mean from the beginning. I'm going to start again with my food and work from there. Baby steps

First goal - log EVERYTHING I eat for the a week. And I mean EVERYTHING! no more "forgetting" to log something that I ate that I shouldn't have or logging less than I really ate. NO MORE LYING TO MYSELF! I'm cheating myself when I do that.

Second goal (once I'm no longer sick) walk at least 1 mile EVERY DAY for 30 days! I can and probably will do more most of the time. But I'm going to walk at least 1 mile every day even if I have to do it inside with a video. I will walk every day.

I'm just going to set those two little baby step goals for now. But I do want to put down a few of my LONG term goals, BIG goals that I have set for myself.

First I want to run/jog an ENTIRE half marathon by the end of 2014. That gives me about 2 years to get up to it. I've completed 3 half marathons so far, but have walked over half of each of them. I'd really like to do this by the end of 2013, but I am giving myself some extra time since I keep getting sick right now.

Second I want to complete a FULL marathon before I'm 40. I'll be 40 May 24th 2016. So I have about 3.5 years to do this. I don't have to run/jog the entire thing. I just want to complete it. And I want to complete it in under 6 hours.

Third On my 40th birthday. May 24th 2016, I want to do a mile of burpees. That is to do burpees for 1 mile. I've even created an event on Facebook for this. So that it's already out there and I can't back out unless I have a medical reason.

For me those are 3 huge goals but I can do them. They are possible goals. They are goals that are important to me. And I'm going to do them even if I have to do them alone. At least I'll know that I did them.

But for now I'm starting small. Log food. Log log log log and walk at least a mile every day for 30 days (once I'm over these infections, should be able to start this within the next week.)

No more cheating myself of a healthy body!
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    I hear ya girl! Right now, while I'm surrounded by Christmas goodies, I've re-committed to logging those calories! Funny, I don't worry about eating if I plan my day around my calorie allowance. We can do this!
    2024 days ago
    An accountability partner would be awesome. My friend that I usually workout/run/walk with is pregnant and having a lot of problems with morning sickness still so she's not getting to do much. I'm hoping that I'll be over this cough or at least the worst of it by the middle of next week so I can get started with my miles.

    2025 days ago
    Awesome goals! If you want or need an accountability partner for the miles, I'm in! I'll do them with you! We can check in and cheer each other on thru text messages!
    2025 days ago
    If the price of gas was less Courtney I'd join the bootcamp. But can't afford the gas. I do really good with my exercising it's my food where I go wrong. I think you are right with the blogging every evening about my day and food and whatever else. I lost 70+ lbs before on my own so I know I can do it. I just have to get my head straight and stop giving in to temptations.
    2026 days ago
    Chrissy ~ emoticon
    Accountability is key too...maybe blog every evening, check in with a friend or your sister. Hope to see you Saturday...even if it's only to be a cheerleader for us. Also, if Newcastle isn't too far to drive I will be starting a fitness camp in January & it will run to the end of April. If you want more information, just message me.
    2026 days ago
  • KIMPY225
    Good luck with all of your goals.
    I don't want you to Start Over though - hopefully you remember the other times & you keep moving forward!

    I do like your big goals! hopefully you can make some mini-goals too! Maybe you could say.... pizza only once a week? or maybe you could order something else other than pizza if you don't feel like cooking? Like a salad or grilled chicken sandwich?

    Good luck!
    2026 days ago
  • BRENDA_G50
    With all that renewal of determination, you WILL make it happen. emoticon

    2026 days ago
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