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Fresh Start

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Well, I am almost one month into my new way of eating and I'm down 17 pounds. I have stopped calling it a diet and am instead looking at it as a new way of thinking and eating. I truly feel like this time I actually get it. I have always been a heavier girl I believe the smallest size i ever got down to was a size 13. ( I would love to see that size again lol ) It was not until I got married and had my two sons that I slowly crept up the size I am today( 22/24 ) . Of course I have spent countless amounts of money buying ever new dvd , book or whatnot trying to lose weight . A few may have worked for a little while but eventually I just went back to eating the way I always had. Mainly because I was just looking for a quick fix and never tried to educate myself. This time around I am using Sparkpeople to educate myself in every way I can. I'm learning so many wonderful things from every part of this site. For the first time in my life I am actually taking ownership of my addiction to food. I recently had to put my 19 yr old son into rehab, and while I was driving him to the place I had arranged for him, he and I had a chance to really talk ( no drugs getting in the way ) and what he said to me will stay with me. When I told him that I was scared for him and that i wanted him to embrace the program he was about to enter, he told me that he had been scared for year's that I was going to die because I was so big. He went on to tell me that the reason he does not like to eat is because he did not want to get 'big' like me. When I heard my child that I love more then life itself tell you that he has been worried for years that you were going to drop dead of a heart attack because you are so big, you can't ignore that! I made him a promise right then and there that I would do everything I could to over come my addiction to food while he worked on his addiction to drugs and alcohol. Now that I have made that commitment to my son I cannot stop for any reason until I'm healthy .
When it comes to exercise, I have a love hate relationship with it. lol I love it when I'm doing it but it's just the getting started that kills me everytime. lol My youngest son is a senior in high school and has already joined the US ARMy and will leave for bootcamp on June 4 after he graduates. So I am using him to motivate me to get up and get moving! He has to be able to run a 8 min mile so while he is working on that goal I have started going out with him and walking and running. Which I love so much I have decided to start a 6 wk training plan to run a 5 k in Jan. Since I have set a goal for myself I have to do everything I can to make it! This is my first blog I have written so now that I have rambled on and introduced myself to everyone, I'm going to tell ya'll that i'm going to need alot of help to keep me strong! Talk to ya later emoticon
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  • BETH_46
    What an awesome blog! It sounds like you have a great exercise plan going on. I am in the same boat when it comes to exercise. It's the getting up and getting started that's the hardest. (Same as getting into the feels good once you're in there, but the getting ready for it is a It sounds like you and your son are going through similar struggles together, just different addictions. I think that will be a big plus for both of you in recovering. Like you, I completely have a food addiction and you and I are wearing the same size clothes. But not for long! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • SUNSHINE99999
    there are definitely a number of spark friends to encourage you. Remember, you can do this oh yes you can. emoticon
    1968 days ago
    I think we all love and hate exercise but we have to do it enjoy your life hugz
    1968 days ago
    Great blog and a first too Way TO GO! Love to hear abut your positive plans for when add them to positive actions you are going get positive results... emoticon
    1968 days ago
    emoticon You have everything in place to succeed!!! Keep it up!!! there are people who believe in you!!!

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