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Starting over again

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Well here I am, back again. I have gained (back) 50 lbs in the past year and a half. I feel frustrated, ashamed and angry at myself. I am 9 lbs. shy of my all time heaviest. I can barely tie my shoes, my clothes don't fit, I get winded very easily, I have heartburn, feel tired all of the time, and my blood pressure is up again. I am miserable.

It's time to stand up, brush myself off, and solve this weight problem once and for all. This time I am gong to try to come at this a little differently. I'm trying to learn from my mistakes so I don't repeat them again. I know how to lose weight, it's the sticking with it and maintaining the loss that trips me up. So I'm listing the things that did and didn't work on my last attempt and failure.

What worked:

Keeping it simple
Allowing all foods in moderation
Portion control
Counting calories
Exercising a lot
Seeing other's success stories
Eating more vegetables, less starch

What Didn't Work

hating myself for being fat and wanting to eat
beating myself up because I was still fat despite losing weight
being impatient with myself and the whole process
being too strict
obsessing about food
reading diet books
setting my goal weight too low

Writing this down makes me realize that the impatience was probably the worst problem. I would get frustrated that I wasn't at my goal weight faster, then try to be be overly strict, and then rebound and start bingeing. Then after a while, I just gave up.

So I need to work on accepting myself with all of my flaws, and be patient with weight loss. If I stick with it long enough, I will make it happen.

I'm back!
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    Congrats on making a wise decision towards good health!
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  • NIKO27
    1970 days ago
    Yes acceptance of ourselves, as we are now, is very important! You have written down what it will take to succeed so I have no doubt you will this time!
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    1970 days ago
    You can do it ! Be proud of yourself for jumping back on the horse ! It's not an easy task to completely change your eating habbits. They're habbits you've had all of your life. Good luck !!! emoticon
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    1970 days ago
    although i am sure it is frustrating to have gained weight back, at least you are wanting and seeing a reason to get it back off, one thing i have learned through this process is i can't diet, because a diet never works in the long run, you have to change your style of eating to something you can stick with, not to say you can't have other things in moderation but a life style change is what people that are predestined to be over weight need to do in a way that fit's their life, mine has been to add a lot of green veggies and smaller amounts of fruit, i finally realized that eating all the green stuff makes me stop craving the sweet stuff and also i don't get hungry like i did good luck and i wish you the best on your journey, always remember it is one step at a time, and the weight didn't come on over night so you can't expect it to come off over night either...
    1970 days ago
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