There's alot on my mind today, so don't mind if this blog is a bit random.
First, I had my dr's appointment today, and I went in there prepared to do battle. Last time she dismissed alot of my questions, and also was mostly concerned with my seizures. It was annoying. This time, I went in, I was determine I'd get ANSWERS! Surprisingly, I didn't have to battle! She'd gotten my seizure records from my neurologist, so that probably helped.
At first she was concerned that I hadn't gain much weight (I was 221 when I got pregnant, dropped to 217, then 214, and am now back up to 216 - which frankly I attribute to Thanksgiving and a lack of exercise). I pulled out my spark app, explained that the pysician's assistant at their office had looked over my pre-pregnancy calorie ranges, and recommended 300 calories be added to each end. Which I did.
This at first didn't ally the doctor's fears, until I pointed out to her that BEFORE joining Spark - before I was trying to eat healthily - I was regularly consuming 3,000 + calories a day. That calmed her down. I pointed out that I was now eating apx half the number of calories I had been when I got to the weight I was at. She looked over Spark, largly approved it, and suggested a bit more protein. Ok, sure.
I'm officially at the halfway point. We heard baby's heartbeat again today - hubby for the first time, and Doc said he sounds great and very active.
I'm beginning to create a birth plan. I have to go in tomorrow for the blood test that I keep putting off. I'm running out of time before they won't be able to do it. I will also be asking for a list of the medications that are commonly used for pain management. I'm not planning on pain meds, but I want to look them up just in case so I know there will be no interactions with the Keppra that I take for my seizures.
I'm on track to hit my fitness minutes for the month. I'm proud of that, and of the year! of fitness minutes. I'm not so proud that I'm having to scramble to reach my goal. I need to work on that.
Really work on that.
I also want to work on evening out my food. I have days that are really good, and days that aren't so good. I'm going to aim for making sure I'm getting my freggies, every day.
Also my water.
I've got a good foundation built by now, but it's still a bit rough in places and needs a bit of support. I can honestly say that while I still have my bad days, they are nowhere NEAR the bad days I once had. My normal day, not that long ago, was over 3,000 calories. I shudder to think what my bad days actually looked like. I don't actually know.
I've gotten a really great handle on the emotional eating. By now, I don't tend to feel that need much anymore, or if I do, I can usually sideline it with something healthy. (cheese and crackers was my last binge, & I think I ate 2 servings of them? Not bad!)
So now that that's becoming more of a non-issue, I need to smooth out and strengthen the every day challenges.
And while I'm not trying to actually loose weight right now, I haven't given up doing Spark cause of the baby. The way I look at it, I'm doing myself and my baby a HUGE favor by eating better, and continuing to learn all I can about health and nutrition. And in turn, it's helping hubby too :)
I'm dealing with some emotional issues too. Learning how to healthily express anger, for one. For some fo you this may sound silly. But in my family, when i was growing up, the only one who could get angry was mom. if you got angry, you had an 'attitude" problem, whether it was a legit reason or not. So I'm learning how to deal with that better. Looking around me for good examples to exemplify.
This has all been part of my journey to get healthier, in body, mind, and soul. Thank you all for being a part of it.