Is It Even Worth It?

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Ate too much. Seem to do ok while at work, then get home and pig out on high fat, salty, and sweet stuff. Not working out. No energy, no motivation. Feeling down and wondering if it is even worth it. I am going to be 40 in April. My stomach is disgusting, had surgery in September to remove ovarian cysts, need another surgery for a hernia, so I have the mindset of "why bother". My breasts are the cliche of fried eggs nailed to a wall, and no amount of exercise will fix that, and I can't afford surgery.

My face keeps breaking out, even though my dr has had me on Doxycyclene for a year. My ob/gyn said perhaps the surgery for the cysts would help since it is hormonal, but it has been 2 months since the surgery and not only am I still spotting between periods (the whole reason I went to the ob/gyn in the first place and discovered I had cysts), but my face isn't any clearer. If anything, it is actually a bit worse.

So basically I feel depressed, unmotivated, and disgusting. I remember how awesome I felt when I was working out each day and eating so carefully, and I STILL can't bring myself to actually do anything about it. Now I feel bloated, fat, greasy, and exhausted. But with all the other crap that's wrong with my body I have to it even worth it?
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    Yes, you are worth every effort! Do not continue to let discouragement rule you! Anything worth having is worth doing! So, keep pushing and moving onward! You can do it!
    2031 days ago
  • MJ7DM33
    Yes it is!!! You most definitely are worth it!!! Hang in there!!!
    2031 days ago
    Yes it is. I also have many days when I wonder why I bother, but I do know that I feel better when I exercise and eat healthy. We can't give up!!

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    2031 days ago
  • EEYORE2609
    Jcraft6, you are right. I need to take baby steps right now, especially so close to the holidays. For me, the food is the toughest to change, because I simply LOVE to eat and snack. Perhaps I can start on just cutting down on the "bad" foods I eat and start incorporating more "good" foods. Grapes instead of popcorn. Super pasta with veggies instead of spaghettios with meatballs. Because tonight my dinner was heavily buttered popcorn and spaghettios. In that order.

    Thanks for letting me know I'm not the only one going through this. It has been tough feeling like such a loser. I feel like a quitter. I KNOW I can do this, I started at 218 pounds and lost 70 pounds all by myself just by working out and eating right! But for 2 years now I have been stuck fluctuating between 145 and 160 cause I just don't have the dedication I had at first. emoticon
    2031 days ago
    I completely understand. I just went through that same feeling. You know what you need to do but to make yourself do it is next to impossible. So what I did was step back and start over as if I didn't know anything. I picked one thing to change and worked on that. I picked drinking water. Then as I was able to do that I picked something else. I started with the food part because for me that is the easiest to change. When the food was going ok (note I said ok not great) I tried to be more active. I didn't really do cardio for a while I just tried to be busy. Then I found as I got busy cleaning my house picking things up I felt better about myself. Now I'm back on track but it took almost a month. Hang in there don't give up. just take baby steps. You can do it and you're worth it.
    2031 days ago
  • EEYORE2609
    Thanks, Knyagenya. Usually I am a lot more optimistic than this, but lately I just am so down. I'm so close to tears all the time. I have to get back to eating right and working out, I felt so much better when I was doing it.
    2031 days ago
    You are worth it. You can do it. emoticon
    2031 days ago
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