Watching snow fall
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
The snow is falling and I am sitting alone at an empty table with a candle burning. I just read a blog of a person that I used to go to school with. I was busy scanning through the pages of a job search engine eagerly searching for some sort of future before even finishing my current education and main source of capital for my next job. I realized that I do not want to be a no one, and settle into having nothing of value. I just need to find some sort of inspiration, or direct goal or vision before I keep sitting and wondering about what the future could be like. This fascination with trying to find a future is taking me away from actually learning what I need to in order to reach some sort occupation and have those needed skills. I am afraid that I lack skills. I worry about being a fraud so often and spending the rest of my life without friends. I long for some close relationships aside from just being in a relationship. I must stop procrastinating and do some work now…
Member Comments About This Blog Post
First off, you ARE someone. You are you and that makes you unique in the world. If you can realize how important you are to yourself and others around you then you will have the most valuable thing you could ever hope for, self-respect and self esteem.
I think you are focusing too much on the future without taking care of today. Concentrate on your current education, be the best person you can be today, and the future will take care of itself. It is okay to have goals and dreams but unless you take care of the things you need to do for today you probably never reach them.
How can you be a fraud if you simply be yourself? Don't try to be something or someone your not just to please others. It doesn't work. Ask me how I know.
You are a valuable person just being who you are. Let others see that person or they can never get to know you. And if they don't like you. so what? You can't be liked by everyone. I you like yourself, that is all that matters. Do that and others will like you too.
Procrastination is a terrible thing. Again, ask me how I know? Make lists of things to do today and then do them, no matter what, do them. Start small and build up the number of things you do. Pretty soon you won't need the list and things will get done with ease.
I hope this doesn't sound like a lecture, its not meant to be. I am just trying to offer you some hard earned lessons from my on life.
I wish you the best for now and in the future.
2006 days ago
Oddly, you & I are in similar positions, as far as "what the future holds". I just read the healthy thought of the day on my sparkmail, and although it doesn't answer your question, it does give some insight.
"Things don't go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up. they happen to break YOU down and build YOU up so you can be all that you were intended to be." Charles "Tremendous" Jones
We're VERY good at procrastination. Have you noticed that too?
And here's a suggested action for you: Fill out one of those questionnaires that we used to take in high school to help us determine what kind of work we would most likely enjoy or have an aptitude to do. It might take you an hour, but if it gives you indications what kind of things you're able to do easily, you'll feel less like a fraud, because you'll know what you're doing, or at least be willing to learn more about it.
I'm one of those people who won't stay at a job for ever and a day.... the fact I've been with the same employer for 10 years is amazing, but I haven't had the same job for more than 3 years. I get bored too quickly. But since I now have the skills and the desire to work on IT Projects, projet management is what I'm really enjoying... and I do pretty OK with the work. 100% isn't possible in my line of work, but detailing the work to be done and by when certainly is.
2006 days ago
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