Day 87: Loving Myself Healthy, even on a bad day
Monday, November 26, 2012
Day 26 of 30days Thanksgiving challenge: I am grateful for patience & faith. Instead of losing my mind today when the head gasket blew on the van, I remained calm, said some prayers, asked for help & LET GO LET GOD.
Today has been a heck of a day. After all is said & done, my caloric range was low, and I didn't go hog wild eating compulsively despite my stress level being so high. I started the day off at LINCARE getting my CPAP machine. I got very stressed while there & even cried like an idiot. It didn't help that my friend told me that I look like Darth Vadar. Great. I already feel fat & ugly. Now I'm going to be uglier. GRRR. Then I went to ring the Bell for Salvation Army. My DIL was supposed to meet me there with a chair. She was late and I was in serious pain trying to stand. Finally had to sit on the side of the building.... she was late because the van broke down. She finally got it limped over to the mall where I was. I called my friend Brandy's husband and he came to my rescue. Turned out that the head gasket was blown. He put something to stop the leaks temporarily and that allowed me to drive the van out to his shop where it is sitting now waiting to be repaired. Many phone calls & arrangements later, everyone is covered for rides through Wednesday morning. Remember, I have 1 vehicle and a LOT of folks to get hither and yon, along with babysitting the grandchildren across town. I've got a substitute for my classes and rides for Paul to & from work tomorrow. I've got a ride set up for the OA meeting tomorrow night. I'm just trying to squeeze the budget and pray. I was already late on rent and now am going to have to figure out how to pay rent and still get the van back. Top it all off with being this close to Christmas time. I'm frustrated and stressed but I am going to just have faith and know that everything is going to work out for the best. I was trying to think of some ways to make some extra money.... maybe it's time to get my crochet hook smokin' again. Anyway... now I am home... Becca got a ride home from someone at work, Paul walked home from AZ, Michael & the kids are stuck over at the granddaughters' house until someone can bring them home. SIGH. One day at a time. That's what we've got. Bright blessings to you all. LOVE, Dawn