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Saturday, November 24, 2012


Purple top on the right, around 245 10/2012

Heather and I did a beach bootcamp with some people from my work a few weeks ago. Little did I know that the Wellness Director (the wee one in the bottom left) would use this picture inside the front page of our 2013 Benefits Booklet - the one they distributed last week and want all 500 or so employees to keep all year.

It shows the bottom of my tummy, the last part of me I still always try to cover. So in a way, rather than taking a step forward in my confidence with showing that part of me, I am kinda more like pushed onto a catwalk. And luckily--I'm okay.

I know a lot of people struggle with accepting pictures of themselves. I have too, to the extreme of temper tantrums and crying fits. But now, besides having a lot to be proud of, I have a method. Shortly after I joined SparkPeople I decided to first accept and then embrace the pictures of me. If they're were unflattering in a way that I rejected before, I adapted to being at peace with the fact that I appeared that way, for that second captured-just that moment in time. We are ever-changing, moving, breathing, living beings. And usually we're not exactly the way we look on film or pixels. Sometimes the camera can capture that sparkle in our eyes that everyone else gets to see, but is lost in the mirror when we are busy evaluating (or worse-criticizing) our appearance.

Anyway, I just wanted to share that picture with my SparkFriends and show you this one of the sunrise the following weekend when I went back to run on the beach with my co-worker. My phone wasn't doing well picking up the colors that I could see with my eyes, so I adjusted contrast to make it more vivid- the way I saw it.

Carlsbad, CA 2012

If I had never started my more active life, I would have continued to miss out on things like this, and only glimpsing breathtaking views through my tv or laptop screen.
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    You're an amazing person and you are right. I'm keeping the "one moment in time" to use next time a picture makes me flip. You look beautiful and your face glows.
    1973 days ago
  • MISSB8604
    Wonderful blog, you are truly amazing.
    1974 days ago
    I hear you on the tummy thing... our tummies could be twins. I have also been becoming more confident and letting it show more than normal.
    It is so funny you should say that about pictures of you, I have just sent an email to family and friends with some not so flattering ones taken at Guy Fawkes. I would NEVER have done that a few months ago!

    1976 days ago
    I can't thank you enough for this blog. I really, really needed this! We just had a fundraiser for a charity I'm involved in and someone, to my horror, posted a picture of me on FB. My reaction was immediate and knee jerk, rather than rational. My Dad was in the photo also and it was a great picture of him. It made me stop and think that I don't have many family photos through the years of all of us together. Mostly because I always took them so I wouldn't have to be in them. What a wasted opportunity! All of that opened the door a crack, but your blog really put the light on it all. Thank you so much for sharing. I feel like I was directed here today. emoticon
    1976 days ago
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    Good for you for working through those mind games and accepting it like that. It's hard to do, but so worth it, I think. :)
    1976 days ago
    What a great blog. That for sharing!
    1977 days ago
    1977 days ago
    Beautiful pictures! I like the way you think about a photo - something captured for just that moment in time. Sure, we can all scrutinize every photo we are in and find something "wrong". I see 5 beautiful women having fun, taking advantage of their surroundings and working to be healthy.
    1977 days ago
    I see the amazing, powerful, fabulous woman I know.
    1977 days ago
    We can see a strong, confident and beautiful woman out there getting healthy... but I know what you mean... coming to terms with looking at photos of yourself is hard, when you lack confidence in your appearance. You are so right - we ARE ever changing... and it is more sad to have no photos of yourself at all!
    1977 days ago
    In the group picture, I see a woman who is participating, active, confident, and saying "I'm all IN". You are putting your attention on the right things by appreciating your new experiences. Go for it!

    1977 days ago
    i have loved the beach since i was a child. too bad for me i can't deal with the humidity. if only the beach wasn't so close to the ocean.
    good picture of you. where did you find all those skinny people?
    1977 days ago
    You look great Jocelyn. Nice picture!
    1977 days ago
    I always wanted to live near the beach, you are lucky and what a view too
    1977 days ago
  • DEBPRE16
    You look very beautiful in the picture. Wish I could run on the beach with you. Well for one thing I can't run and the other I live too far away here in the land of mountains and snow.
    1977 days ago
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  • HHB4181
    So jealous you can go to the beach now, I broke out my gloves the other day.

    Great outlook!
    1977 days ago
  • -AMANDA79-
    We are always our own worst critic. So jealous of your beach workouts! emoticon
    1977 days ago
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