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Things are getting easier!

Friday, November 23, 2012

I hate to even admit it to myself, much less anyone else (or potentially hundreds of people!), but I REALLY let myself go over the course of the summer, until November. I mean, REALLY let myself go. It really started to scare me - straight into doing something about it! I had NO energy. ZERO, zilch, zip! All I wanted to do all day long was sit on my big ole' arse and do nothing!

Now...I admit, this is not new. I have become fairly sedentary over the years, even during times I have been working out and losing weight. But THIS - this beat all. The worst part was, when I needed to do something active (and it really didn't need to take much) I just couldn't do it. I was too exhausted and too sore to be able to press through it. That was scary as heck! That's what happens to......OBESE PEOPLE. Yeah............guess what........... YOU ARE!!

It was my 'rock bottom' moment, when I needed to clean out my refrigerator. It was dirty, it needed cleaning. I couldn't do it. I had to sit on a chair through most of it, and even still I needed a couple of my girls to help out with a huge chunk of it because I simply couldn't do it.

Do you hear what I'm saying?! I COULDN'T CLEAN OUT MY FRIDGE!!!

There is something so very wrong with that picture. It scared my socks straight off. Two days later (because apparently I had to 'convince' myself, or something) I started slowly making changes.

The first thing I did was go back to my favorite Yoga video that I can't believe I ever stopped. That first day?? OH BOY.........I'm glad I'm not on the Truman show or anything, because it was ugly. But you know what? I did it, and did it to the ABSOLUTE best of my ability, despite doing it 'perfectly'. Time has gone by, and it is getting easier!! Much quicker than I thought it would!

One of the big markers for me was making our Thanksgiving meal. Not only did we cook the meal, we deep cleaned our kitchen at the same time. (Don't ask me why. We just started to do it, and went with it.) Under normal circumstances, I would have needed to sit down a lot during the day. I sat a few times to rest while peeling potatoes, carrots, or rutabagas, but other than that, I was up and working for about 7 hours straight! I was shocked at myself - but it was really a good indicator that even though the weight isn't falling off my body the way I *think* it should, I am building endurance. It has been such an encouragement to me to see this happening!

So, overall, things are getting easier, and I am working harder. In the past, if I haven't seen the weight coming off in a fury, I have felt like a failure. NOTHING could be more the opposite this time around. I am so encouraged in MYSELF, because this time it has sunk in. The lifestyle change, and the reason for it, has sunk in. And I feel so much lighter inside because of it. And, soon enough, I WILL BE lighter outside to match it! :-)

~ Christa
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    yeah Christa!! so glad you are feeling more energetic... more who you really are!
    1971 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon We all need a "hit the bottom" moment to get us off our butt and to get moving. You had it, you learned from it and you are on the right track. We all know this journey is not an easy one, but if I can do it.....YOU CAN DO IT! I was the queen of excuses.

    My moment came in a photo of myself visiting my sister-in-law. I was HUGE. I told myself it was the camera adding pounds and that it was a bad angle. The truth is I had ignored the signs and made excuses. That picture smacked me in the face!

    I found new friends, here, and with the support of people that were also on this weight loss journey, I lost the weight and developed new habits.

    Keep at it! One day at a time and sometimes it comes down to one spoonful or one step. I know you can do it and I'm here to help!
    1977 days ago
  • DAS92687
    Christa, So, it happened. And now, moving on ... let's get to it !!
    I know you are going to get stronger more and more day by day emoticon
    1978 days ago
  • MLYN92
    It is always great to go back to the one favorite yoga tape, or a particular dance.
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    1979 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/24/2012 1:07:15 AM
    Christa, Building a new lifestyle is really tough at first, but guess what? If you do it consistently, pretty soon it is just that - your lifestyle. I know you can do it.
    1979 days ago
    =] Noticing you've let yourself go is a good step and admitting to the world is an even greater step!!

    Just remember that any sized step in the right direction still counts as working towards your goal. Forget what is behind you and focus on where you want to be =] You'll get back on track if that's what your heart really desires.
    1979 days ago
    1979 days ago
    So get up off that big arse, and realizing that it is a big arse, do something to make it smaller.

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    1979 days ago
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