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Tuesday, November 20, 2012

It is 12:39 p.m. and I'm still in my workout gear. The workout ended two hours ago. I need to get moving, but I'm just so lazy and calm at the moment, I feel like just sitting around. Even Punim feels that way. He's sacked out on his bed snoring.

So a note about the 6 lb weight loss. It sort of isn't "real." Pardon my twisted thinking here, but I gained 6 pounds the week before because of the emotional eating of crap and not working out. Since Saturday(ish) I am back to taking care of myself. I stepped on the scale today to see if I'd made any progress, and praise be, I've gotten rid of those 6 lbs. Some of this just may have been water. But I believe I was indeed eating an extra 3500 calories a day.

emoticon Here's the twisted thinking part: I feel that it is easier to drop pounds that I've gained very recently. In my mind, they are just sort of in a different compartment of my body, ready to jettison after a few days of being back on track.

Now I'm back to 181.5, which puts me back to a mere 2.5 lbs away from no longer being obese. I WANT THOSE 2.5 POUNDS GONE.

I've gotten some spark mails and some comments from some very sweet and supportive sparkers reminding me to love myself and not to be concerned about BMI. I appreciate your support more than I can say! I am trying to love myself, but that is just not easy. Your suggestions and advice are so very helpful and I appreciate them a lot.

But the BMI thing? That is really important to me. I am in this for my health more than anything. And I don't believe that being obese is healthy. Will I ever reach size 4? That's not important. In fact, the answer to that is probably "no" because the top half will never, ever be that small. I've accepted this. I don't like it, but I've come to terms with it.

Right now, I need to focus on emotional eating. It not only gets me into trouble, but it keeps me from actually dealing with the things that upset me to that degree. This is not healthy.

NB: This doesn't mean that I can slack off, eat crap, and not work out. By no means. But my focus is less on the regular eating and working out. I know what to do there now. It is the other eating and the other reason I stay inactive when I'm emotional (good and bad, by the way.)

And now it is 12:56. I need to get showered and dressed so I can take Punim out on a proper walk. Then I have to go out and buy the first parsnip I've ever bought. I'll need this for my part of Thanksgiving dinner. More about that later.

Ciao Bella!
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    Real schmeal! 6lbs is still 6lbs! Everybody on this merry go round goes up and down. It's a part of the process... until your mind and body gets correctly in the groove and the weight goes consistently down! So I'm taking your 6lb. loss as a win-win! emoticon emoticon I know you can do this because you ROCK! Keep going! emoticon
    1981 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/21/2012 11:27:50 PM
    I take it as a successful loss!!

    God bless,

    1982 days ago
    I'm going to say this - I don't think it is twisted thinking to believe recently gained pounds are easier to lose. In fact, what tends to be twisted thinking is the idea that if we eat 3500 extra calories one day, we have one more pound of fat the next day.

    Second, using BMI to break out of the obese category is just fine. We know when we aren't super-bulked body-builders that 30+ is too high. We can see the fatty deposits on our body. Once it gets below 30, it does start to get less accurate at reflecting the precise condition of our body. The more muscle we develop (not bulky necessarily, just fit), the more we can weigh and be healthy - but BMI doesn't differentiate between Lean Body Mass and Body Fat.

    emoticon and you'll see those 2.5 pounds drop away, to be followed by more!
    1982 days ago
    I know what you mean. I had the biggest "snoopy dance" party when I cross the obese line for BMI.

    You can do it! I know that. You will get there, just keep working it. You are eating well and working out. That is what it takes and I know you've GOT what it takes.
    1982 days ago
    Hey - congrats on the 6 lbs! And it is SO real! You've still put in the work and lost those 6 lbs! I'm proud of you!
    Getting down to a healthy BMI is important to me too, but it feels a LONG way off, so congrats on being so close to it! I'm proud of you!
    1982 days ago
    I understand the whole BMI thing. I've lost over 75 lbs and i'm still considered obese based upon the BMI. Most people are surprised by it but the truth is.... I make the choice to be whatever size I choose. I make the choice to be whatever BMI I decide. I will continue to lose weight but at the end of the day, the choice is mine.

    Don't let anyone change your mind on what you want.

    Like I tell others, I'll tell you.... make your body choices based upon healthy information and learning. Don't be ignorant but be wise. Choose to be healthy but the way you want. Sometimes making the choice to be what you describe as healthy will have consequences, but once again its your choice.

    Hope you understand what i'm saying. Hope it was helpful! Be blessed and stay strong!
    1982 days ago
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