I did not fall off the wagon...

The last few weeks have been a little crazy. My challenge ended with October, body fat testing was done Nov. 2nd and I of course took the weekend off of tracking food/working out hardcore to celebrate. Then I did really well with getting back to tracking food, and ok with working out. Starting on the 9th though, I really slipped out of it all. My sister's birthday was the 9th, then out for a friend's bday brunch on the 10th, then it was my boyfriend's birthday on the 12th, and I went to Vegas for work on the 14th through the 16th and we went out with friends for my boys bday on the 17th...

I am so thankful to live such a blessed and full life, but it doesn't lend itself to moderation (and lets face it, I could do a better job of sticking with limits, but I'm not there yet). BUT here's the good news!! Even with all of the indulgences of about a solid week, I jumped right back into the gym starting yesterday and tracking food today. That's more like taking a week off (a little fall vacation?) than it is "falling off the wagon".

Falling off the wagon would include whole days with every intention of returning to the plan and failing, even when there wasn't a good excuse. Falling off the wagon would mean noticing that I had some actual weight gain that caused clothes to fit tighter or a loss of energy and motivation. Falling off the wagon would require great inspiration to get back on and would drag me down emotionally as I thought of all the times before that I had fallen off the wagon and what an awful cycle this whole thing is.

But I know better now. I had a few weak moments. Fitness and making healthier choices were never far from my mind, were never totally unreachable. I made the choice to indulge, but that's all it was. A choice. My choice. And now that I'm back to normal life, I choose to make healthier choices again. It feels good to be in that kind of control instead of letting emotional eating and cravings rule me. My birthday is coming up next month (Christmas Eve!) and I have quite the indulgent time planned for it, so I've got great motivation to make those healthy choices now so that I feel completely free to celebrate next month. For the time I've decided (about 4-5 days) and then I'll get back to work.