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Reality check for a realist

Monday, November 19, 2012

So I've been struggling since the time change. It really is jacking with my mojo...that and the upcoming holiday season. Well, who am I kidding, it started with Halloween...and won't end until February but lets hope I can turn it around well before then!

Yes, the time change effected my running because I was running in the evenings after 6 pm and now since the neighborhood where I run is so dark early, I won't run for safety sake. I tell myself to get home, get changed and get out the door early but that has yet to happen. A treadmill is out of the question and I don't belong to a gym...yet. It's dark in the morning when I leave for work so that is not an option either.

I feel like a whiney brat "I can't run anymore, wah, wah, wah". Not my style. But I am in a rut since this has carried over into my not exercising at all anymore...rarely is more like it. And I miss it. But why can't I just get up and do it?

I've been stuffing my face instead that's why! I still eat the healthy foods; fruits, vegetables and some protein but I also eat a fair amount of junk too. I eat it because it comforts me...why do I need comfort? I'm not sad...I am a little lonely though. And I'm sure I've mentioned this a time or two before. I miss having my friends close by to run out and grab a movie, go shopping or just hang out. Moving to a new town 14 months ago, far away from anyone familiar, is hard on's hard to make new friends. Co-workers are not anyone I want to hang out with and I do go to meetups on occasion but I usually leave feeling empty; it's hard to make a connection in a group of strangers. I am not the most congenial person...I'm not rude just not the most friendly...I guess I'm guarded around people I don't know well. Ugh. Sorry this isn't a 'feel good' blog.

Anyway, I had a plan to re-do the Livefit program after Thanksgiving to give me something to focus on BUT since they highly suggest no cardio for the first month in order to build that muscle, I will postpone it until December 2. I am doing a 10k (my first one!) on the 1st and can't afford to not run, I need to keep my endurance up. So instead, I'll put a make-shift calendar on paper, laying out which days I'll run and which days I'll do a DVD instead...and get out the door early enough I don't get caught in the dark.

I just joined the Emotional Eaters group on here too, so maybe that will help me focus.

My sister and nephew will be here tomorrow afternoon for Thansgiving week...and I'm sure that will help fill a void for a while.

I know I'll get out of this funk, I know I'll get back on the kick-butt exercising kick, but for now...I'm not happy with myself.

Thanks for reading and tolerating the 'poor me' one will be better!
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    (((hugs))) and love going out to you! I am sorry about the running and life stuff. It is hard when the running brings you so much joy. Are there any local running clubs. I have a store by my house where runners at all different levels get together to run and it is dark. Maybe check out some local store sites and see if they do meetups. You'll find your way babe! I'm in a funk with ya. We will break through it!!!
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    1976 days ago
  • MUPP1970
    I appreciate your honesty. Sometimes when I read people's blogs, I'm like, "HEY, I thought I was the only one that felt that way!"

    Get your MOJO and make it happen!
    1977 days ago
    Is there anywhere near work that you could run instead - changing there rather than after the drive home? (I'm lucky enough to be a couple of blocks from a trail / track where a lot of people walk, run, and bike.) By doing that, you won't have the "I'm home, time to relax" mindset to fight.
    1977 days ago
    1977 days ago
    I am having the same issues with exercise only my favorite exercise is cycling. The car drivers round here drive so fast so I only cycle when my husband can come with me. Its only a mile at the beginning and a mile at the end on the busy road but its still scary. I wouldn't contemplate running along it!

    Is there any way you can get a quick run in at lunchtime at all? I used to do that, even though we had no shower at our works. I used to take wetwipes to work for a bit of a wipe down afterwards. It helped keep me sane, plus I didn' t have to hang out with the bunch that I worked with which was a bonus.

    Keep on sparking, I'm sure that you will work something out.
    1977 days ago
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