Alllright... Start a-new

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Sooooo It's been a while since I have used SparkPeople and it has not been good. I ran my second half marathon on August 5th. After that, I stopped training and no motivation (because I had no more external motivation) my appetite was the same and I kept eating the many calories I was while I was training. The weight just hopped back on. :-( I am at about the same when I started training earlier in the year.

Also later in August, I was going through a life change. I didn't get the job I wanted and I had to make a decision to stay in Central Oregon or to move back to the Valley (and to my 6-year relationship with my boyfriend).

I fell in love with Central Oregon when I first moved. There were always outdoor activities, weekend events, lots of free music and I made some good friends out here. After being depressed in the Valley and weighing 200 pounds, I felt good over here with the healthy atmosphere and the many exercise opportunities. I liked who I was becoming over here.

So I decided to stay in Central Oregon. My boyfriend didn't like that and we broke up. It was very difficult then and is still difficult now (two months later). I was lucky enough to find 3 jobs (one main job and a couple of catering opportunities) and am enjoying Central Oregon for another year.

Last night, I found out that my ex boyfriend has started seeing another girl. I didn't take it very well. I was hurt, pissed, and sick to my stomach. I was crying all night. I couldn't believe that he moved on so quickly. It has been only two months! I figured a 6 year relationship would take a little more to move on from.

I talked to my mom and she said she would be able to assist me with some counseling, if I needed it. Then it dawned on me....

I don't need a counselor, I need a personal trainer. To get back into shape, to feel better on the inside and outside. To release endorphins so I am happier. To finally get that tattoo on my side. To start moving on. For closure.

I need to do this for me. To start a-new.

I will start to use SparkPeople more. Get back on track. Feel better.

I wish you all luck in your journeys, as I start mine again.

Sorry, I needed to write this down and to vent.
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    You know what, if your boyfriend was worth it, he would have supported you in your move and in getting healthier. Clearly, something was wrong there in the first place.

    Darling, I'm so glad you're back on SparkPeople!

    If you want some more motivation and support, come join my SparkTeam!


    We can do this together!

    2344 days ago
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