emotional eating

Friday, November 16, 2012

I have admitted to myself that I have an issue with emotional eating. I am going to say that, instead of saying "I am an emotional eater" because that implies I always emotionally eat, and that isn't true. I do have an ISSUE with it, however. When something that affects deeply emotionally, I eat. And unfortunately it's usually not something healthy.

Last night I had a great concert, audience loved it, I got wonderful compliments. One man in the chorus asked to get my picture, then he called me the name of different singer. I was crushed. This might sound trite, but there are many issues involved with being called this precise singer. One is she is about 150 pounds heavier than me. All of a sudden I doubted my own weight loss, my work... I came back to the hotel and ordered fish and chips. Something I truly NEVER eat. I was hungry, I did need to eat something...but in every way it was a horrible choice. I stay away from deep fried food, because for me it's just not worth the calories, and it gives me horrible reflux. Second issue... I have a 2 pm concert today, and made a choice that compromised that...all based on an emotional reaction to a negative comment!
I hate that I am so sensitive. I can get 100 compliments or good reviews, and I get one bad one, and I am in the dumps... horrified, embarrassed. I try very hard to just give it to God... I work very hard to be as good as I can, but I can't control how people feel.
My goal today is to make better choices. To have a good workout after my concert. And to accept myself and love myself.
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    Oh Michelle; how frustrating and disappointing it can be when words trigger something inside of us to make us flee to a place we know we shouldn't be going. (I had a counselor once tell me 'don't should on yourself"!) Words can easily try to define who we are, or at least who we think we are. Oh how we let those words affect us, even if the other person didn't mean it. You needed to do something to comfort yourself, and choosing the fish and chips was certainly an easy way to do that. You and I know the answer is in our hope of Jesus Christ as our comfort and hope, yet we can so easily choose something that is a quick fix to our emotions.

    I am so thankful that you desire to seek the Lord first in every day. It isn't always easy to do so, but we have that opportunity to do that. I am grateful that His grace is sufficient for me every day! As Susie said, you are a precious and lovely daughter and Princess of the King. That is what defines you and me for eternity! Alleluia!

    Julia : )
    1983 days ago
    Michelle, you are a lovely, talented woman, and a beloved Daughter of the King! I'm so sorry this person made a hurtful comment! I, too, tend to take things personally. Even out of context remarks can bring me to tears. But we must return to what God says about us, and choose to honor Him and ourselves with our responses. Not saying that is easy ... Or that I always do it ... But let's pray for one another and ask for the Spirit to guide us into the Truth, OK? Sending emoticon your way!
    1984 days ago
    I like that you've chosen not to define your beingness as "emotional eater". You have an issue with it, emotions can overwhelm you, but as a being you are far more complex than a strong emotion and eating. (Truly, I wonder how many people who define themselves as emotional eaters consider themselves something more positive the rest of the time? I know I did that with "lazy" for a long time - saying "I am lazy" even while I was very busy and active.)
    1984 days ago
    Wow! A singer! I will not even ding in the shower. When my son was 2 and I was singing to him, he looked up at me with his big blue eyes and said, "Mommy, don't do that." I so admire that you have the gift of singing.
    I hear your pain and disappointment though. I am sorry someone was careless enough to not take the time to know who they were talking to. That is on them and not you.
    Keep up your good work and efforts and forget the rest. You are on a healthy path and it is all your own. Guided by your choices and no one else. I had to learn to put up a filter for what I was going to accept into my sacred space and what needed to dissipate and not enter my space. It may be helpful for you to consider doing it also.
    Being concerned with who I am and being the best me I can be is enough work. It keeps me busy enough to not worry about who another person is being. That is their issue.
    You are blessed with a great talent. Soar on the wings of your successes. Do not let anyone silly ground you!
    1984 days ago
    emoticon I understand and I agree with Neptune1939. Praying your concert goes well today.
    1984 days ago
  • NEPTUNE1939
    What others think of me is none of my business". I heard that once and in reality it is true; but verbal remarks are different. As the bible indicates, words can be like spears and wound our soul. If you can, give those remarks to God, let Him deal with it. Concentrate on your God given talent and do what is best to care for your "body temple".

    Often when someone does something that disturbs me I say within, "I greet the God within you - God he's your child". Have a great concert, Earl emoticon
    1984 days ago
    I think a lot of us turn to food in emotional times. Cool that you sing though. I would love to be talented enough to sing for others.
    1984 days ago
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