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Thursday, November 15, 2012

last couple of days have been heavy with emotions that ive purposely buried and would normally want to turn to food to silence the cry and numb the pain. choosing to deal with the pain in non caloric ways is deeply challenging and uprooting. to choose differently, to keep focused on the results i want later rather than the ease i crave now...

im becoming aware how many times i am unconsciously sighing and what am i saying to myself that produces the sigh...' its always going to be like this for me', 'its just the way it is' 'i dont deserve better', 'im stuck', 'i cant'. all of which are false.

I want to cover my head and wallow, but instead i chose to get up and go to the gym anyway, to follow the menu anyway. to nurture myself.... anyway. one victory in a row. Im learning to celebrate the small victories... i made it to 8 am, i chose to go to the gym, i thought ahead and made sure i had almonds with me in case.... my water bottle is my friend....
i am worth fighting for.
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    Yes you are worth fighting for! Somedays, some weeks, it is truly difficult. And we've been told all our lives by someone...our parents, a friend, the media, a stranger, ourselves, that our appearance is everything. Well it isn't, right? We are valued, we do have a purpose, and we need to be healthy and happy with ourselves to achieve it. Keep pushing, for yourself. You ARE worth it.
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