My First Negative

Thursday, November 15, 2012

I took my first pregnancy test this week. I can't believe how disappointed I am that its negative. No matter how many times I told myself it was unlikely I would get pregnant in our first month of trying, I still feel down about it.

When I told my husband, I started crying. I didn't even know how down I was about it until I had to tell him and it all just came out. He was great about it and made me laugh. It doesn't seem fair of nature to have us find out that kind of news right when we are most emotionally unstable. (or atleast I am)

Possible TMI:

I came off the pill this month and this will be my first "real" period in 8 years. I am already annoyed that my weight spiked up 3 pounds, my boobs hurt, and I've been constipated. I've also been spotting for three days but haven't really started my period. And I find all this annoying..... symptom of PMS? probably :)

Well, on to next month. Hopefully if more negatives are in my future I'll be better able to handle them without breaking down every time.

I prayed that God would send us a baby at the right time. I guess this is the part where I have to trust and believe that he will. Even if it takes longer than I want it to.
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    Coming off bc is so hard! I found that not matter what I did I gained weight and I mistook every coming off bc symptom as a pregnancy symptom! Hope you get your BFP soon! Good luck!
    2020 days ago
    Patience Grasshopper :)
    Someday when you've heard "mom" for the 800th time you will need it!
    2043 days ago
    Sorry to hear it. It's hard not to think you'll get pregnant your first month. It seems like we all know someone who did. Not me, and not you. You're absolutely right that it'll happen at the right time, but I also know that it's so hard to wait! Hang in there. emoticon
    2043 days ago
    I took birth control for eight years because my first pregnancy resulted in an emergency C-section. At 18 yrs. old I had to find out in the delivery room that my cervix was abnormally too small for me to deliver a baby vaginally. I actually had to choose between my baby and myself. But, they called in a specialist and God was watching me over that Christmas Eve morning of 12/24/1979 and my baby boy survived the birth canal and I was one of the first to recieve the new bikini cut incision. My son is now 32 yyrs old. They wanted to tie my tubes, it was suggest that I not get pregnant again. I was told it was to risky for me, that I could never have a baby normal, and I could never risk going into labor again. I refused the sterilization, I was in denial. After being on the pill for almost 5 years I totally quit having a period. My obgyn told me after 8 yrs that I need to make up my mind on another form of bith control, that I had been on the BC pill too long. While I was thinking, I just decided, that maybe it was time to take another chance, after all,I loved kids, I loved my son so much. And he often asked when he was going to get a little brother.And it usually was on his Christmas List. So I stopped the pill and found another obgyn that specialized in high risk pregnancies and lo in behold I now have a 2nd son who is 24 yrs old. Of course The c-section was planned for the beginning of the 8th trimestet. But it was well worth it. I wouldn't have changed a thing.
    Just be patient and I'm sure you will be pregnant before you know it. In the mean time, you and your husband just enjoy burning those calories while practing making that baby. emoticon
    2043 days ago
    I remember testing after my first month off BC. My period was late so I had my hopes up real high. I was sad when I got a BFN especially since I just found out my sister was pregnant after trying for one month. I got my positive two months later and I was beyond overjoyed. I hope you don't have to wait too long for yours!
    2043 days ago
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