My Foundation

Thursday, November 15, 2012

The Rock I Built Upon

She was the foundation of all that she wished I would be
I spent a lot of time fighting what I knew was right by her to make decisions on my own
Realizing that all the while, she knew where I would be
Instructing me in the way to be a strong woman and a firm but understanding mother
To love and respect myself enough that no one can tear me down
She always told me that the inner me would become my worst enemy at times
I found that funny and then years later….no truer words did she ever speak than those
My foundation moves and threatens to dissipate and then
I can see, I can feel
I can hear, I can smell
The most wonderful women that I have ever known
I may not have been the model person that she wanted me to be
Still there she was
By phone
By letter
Occasional drop in
I could always count on her being a firm and caring presence
I hear her words
Ones of disappointment when a moment of indecision crept in
Ones of encouragement when accomplishments were made
Tones of worry about illnesses and times of frustration
The woman that protected me when I didn’t realize that was what she was doing
She was always there; she is here in my heart
My memories
When I close my eyes
When I dream
While awake she is in my thoughts
I stop and ask
What would she say?
What would she do?
What would she see?
What would she hear?
She, the woman who wanted more for me than I knew what I wanted for myself
She loved me
She sacrificed for me
She taught me about being a decent human being
For others having empathy
To have compassion
To sacrifice for others
To not forget myself along the way
Oh, how I do have empathy
I have compassion
I have sacrificed especially myself for others
For her and myself, I did this
I finally stopped and listened to what she was, and is, still teaching me
This precious spirit
This precious character
This precious soul
Gave to me the foundation that I have been trying to show to my children
Taken many years this has
She is an omnipresent presence in my life
I will miss being able to see
This very special woman
She will be forever in my heart
In my life
I love you.

Margarett Hartness Johnson:
My Foundation…..My Grandma (Mom)
February 29, 1932 to August 14, 2012

Please forgive the trespasses I placed between our hearts. I love you and miss you terribly.

Teresa Cassandra Snyder Waldun Pye

August 31, 2012
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