Conquering the Metal Monster
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
When I first started with SparkPeople my goal was to lose weight, keep it off and live a healthy lifestyle. What I've realized is, in order to reach those goals I first have to break the diet mentality. I starting "dieting" at age 11. Yup, I've battled my weight for almost 39 years. It's no wonder those old tapes are running though my head and old habits are so hard to break.
Thinking about all the diet plans I've tried over the years, one thing has been a common factor... the dreaded scale. Every single weight loss plan revolves around the number on the scale. It makes sense why I've become programmed to relay on this metal monster to determine my progress or lack there of. Don't get me wrong, the scale does have a purpose, but for me I've become so reliant on what the numbers on the scale say that it has become counter productive.
Most of the time, when the scale doesn't show what I want it to, I become depressed, angry, frustrated and it sets me up for a horrible day.
The amazing thing about Spark People is that it has allowed me to do so much soul searching to realize where my challenges are, and out of now where unexpected things start happening. Two days ago, I "forgot" to get on the scale. To my surprise, panic did not set in, as it has in the past when I've try to give up my daily weigh-in. When I realized I didn't step on the scale, I actually felt happy, relieved, freedom from the hold the scale had on me.
Only now am I aware of how negatively the scale was affecting me. I don't want that anymore. Changing that behavior is part of having the healthy lifestyle I'm searching for. It's okay for me not to know how much I weigh, every single minute or every single day. What a break though. Others may not understand having an addiction to the scale, but this is truly a big accomplishment for me.
I've decided to weigh-in just once a month, and started a Spark streak to help me conquer that metal monster.
Two days and counting.