What is a "no-brakes" food?
Monday, November 12, 2012
I'm a professed boredom eater. It sucks when it seems like the only way to control it is to put duct tape over your own mouth. How hard can it be to only put things in one's mouth, chew, and swallow ONLY when it is physically necessary? Well, I can't tell you why it happens to me, but it does. There's a disconnect between mouth and stomach. Even when the stomach says it's not hungry for more, the mouth only knows that it likes delicious things to be placed in it as often as possible.
And that's why no-brakes foods are bad.
Last night I brought spinach dip (low carb, but not for the dairy-sensitive) to the D&D gathering, and someone else brought crackers.
For some reason, I seem to have instituted an eat-all-the-things policy even though it's 100% obvious to me that sugar and grain-based, high-carb foods have no place in my mouth or stomach for at least 90% of the time. So I had a cracker with my dip. And another. And another.
Add to that the spontaneous decision to enjoy an adult beverage that just so happened to be carbonated AND had a friend.
Between a copious number of crackers and the Smirnoff's, my stomach bloated outrageously. I clearly cannot handle having carbonation in my tummy. It was BAD. And those crackers... I could not go more than a minute without thinking about another cracker.
THAT is what a no-brakes food is. I could not make myself slam on my own brakes even though I wasn't hungry anymore.
I know I've set a goal for myself at LEAST seven times this year to eat mindfully, and only when truly hungry. That's only the goals I've written down somewhere! Every time I eat something I'm not hungry for and then feel gross for eating it, I devote myself to never doing that again; to being solidly grain-, sugar-, and sometimes dairy-free for at least a week/two weeks/one day before indulging again; and to fasting for one day because I'm sedentary anyway and who needs calories to sit perfectly still for eight hours lifting nothing heavier than a pencil?
I have no idea how to manage this. I have like, zero self-control. I can't even sit for an hour straight doing homework without going ADD on myself. I have a lot of goals relating to self-control, too.
I want to be able to make myself sit and complete 3 productive action items every day, whether they're reading assignments or what have you.
I want to make myself make time to do PT or other exercise every day without having to have a set class time.
I want to be able to stop myself from eating just because there is food.
I want to make myself stop complaining about my in-laws, since I can't change them and I can't avoid them.
What's the answer? Turn off the computer for X hours to get legitimate homework done? Ration my meals and time 4-6 hours between them as a minimum so that I HAVE to wait until I'm hungry? Suck down water? Brush my teeth obsessively? Duct tape my own mouth shut (that would solve two problems in one, wouldn't it)?
I used to have rock-solid control of myself. I don't know what happened, just that it has to stop.