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Unable to see the end of the journey

Monday, November 12, 2012

I feel like I am going around in circles and I get an insight and lose it and start to do something great and then forget that I wanted to. It has been so long since I felt slender and attractive that I am doubting that I can ever get there. I am not sure what this doubt is all about. I know that I do good things in the world but somehow my mind is focusing on all the doubt these last few days.

I have felt this way before. Sometimes I can hang on and continue moving in the right direction. Other times I lose it. I hope I can continue well enough to get some success and find my motivation.

I just don't know that I will ever get below 200. I am not completely giving up. Just feeling doubtful.
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    Groan.. I KNOW!

    I look at that 200 mark and think really? Only 5 pounds away and yet it seems like it is in another dimension!!!!

    I don't know if you are doing the next biggest loser challenge but I am. My team has decided to rededicate and push. We'll see how that goes. What has worked for me?
    -yardwork . Maybe because I usually work more than 60 minutes? Unfortunately this challenge there will be less yardwork and I'm not sure when the snow will come
    - sleep. Hmmm good to think about. The times when I have gotten ten hours straight I have usually dropped some weight. Of course life has me usually getting 5-7 hrs.
    - 400 calorie meals 4x/day seemed to work. SP keeps telling me I am not eating enough. I was making sure I got seeds and nuts in there too before. Hmmm.
    - patience... because really I don't have a magic formula. Sometimes the plateaus have lasted quite some time. Then the scale moves a bit. I guess I am just that kind of person. Slow and not so steady. But it DOES move. I also can say I have finally lost some inches where none were lost before with all the cardio and ST. It's not all about the scale.
    2013 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/15/2012 12:29:57 AM
    You can do it Pam Think positive, set small golas for each day so you have small victories emoticon
    2015 days ago
  • CAT125
    emoticon emoticon
    2015 days ago
  • NANCY-
    Do you have any NSV (non-scale victories)?
    I have a few:
    A range for my am Blood glucose.
    Daily exercise (Yes it is a victory.)
    Perhaps these will help see you through.
    Have faith.
    You will achieve your goals.

    2015 days ago
    The way you'll get there is one healthy decision at a time. That's it. Take every opportunity to make the best choice you can and be patient.
    2016 days ago
    You can do this!!!
    2016 days ago
    You have been successful in the past. It is the same and yet different. I understand that it is truly harder to "relose" weight and it can be harder with a chronic medical condition.

    I should introduce you to my neighbor. She was on an insulin pump, unable to keep her sugars below 250. Her kidneys were failing and she was surely going to die. Her doctor put her on a very restrictive diet and she lost weight! She now is half the woman she was and takes no medication for diabetes or blood pressure. I'm not saying that you need to or should, but she did it and never thought she could.

    You can do it even though you cannot see it happening. Believe! You can do this.
    2016 days ago
    I hope you can continue to hang on...sometimes we just have to fake it til we make it.

    This is a really hard journey, but all we should focus on is making one good decision at a time. That's really all we have control over. Good luck!!
    2016 days ago
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