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I'm Fat and Miserable.

Thursday, November 08, 2012

Just a quick blog to let you know I'm still here.

I have basically been trying to watch what I eat and failing miserably every day. I did OK yesterday, but I have gained back the 4 lb. I lost. I have stopped participating in the fall 5% challenge, too. Perhaps these two things are related, but I can't seem to get back on track.

My latest problem is eating snacks at work. I am eating junk off the snack cart and it is costing me in pounds... I can't stop; it is almost like binging. I am doing it daily. I don't know how to stop. I have to be around the snacks, and I can't seem to leave them alone.

In other news, still don't know if I am pregnant and just getting over a bad cold. I am miserable on all fronts. I wanted to lose a few lb. before I got pregnant, but it looks like a far away dream at this point.

Sorry to be such a downer. I just feel terrible about my lack of commitment. I want this, why can't I just STOP self-sabotaging?
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    emoticon I have been having the same issue with the halloween candy:( So you are not alone. And I agree with the others lets take it one day at a time :) emoticon
    2043 days ago
    Everybody's been there..we just have to get back on track once in awhile..happens to everyone..starrt with basics.. we're glad you're still here..you can do it..Spark can help
    2046 days ago
    emoticon I know how hard it is when things feel like they have gotten derailed. But even when we are succeeding, it's still a matter of baby steps.

    I have been participating in a virtual conference all this week, and the final speaker said something that made me think about my journey to health -- "What one thing can you change to be more effective?" That really resonated with me because it focused on the positive outcomes that result from looking at just one thing. Once I have that down, then I can go to another thing. Get that going well, and then look to one other thing. Lather, rinse, repeat.

    Over time, there are lots of things that I am doing to work toward my goal and they add up to an impressive effort. But it all starts with just one thing.

    You can do this. You are worth it!
    2047 days ago
    so sorry you're feeling down emoticon

    it might be worthwhile to remind yourself why you're doing this. the 'good' and the 'bad' reasons. could be time for a vision collage of some form to make to re-evaluate why you're on this path in the first place.

    i agree with the other comments - slow down and take some baby steps. just track everything you eat, even if you don't worry about range. or just focus on getting your water intake up. or just focus on eating 5 servings of veggies each day. one step at a time, and you'll be back in no time!
    2047 days ago
    I haven't been at my best this week... We all get there at times... Last night I planned a menu for the next few days, today I went to the store, worked out, made breakfast, lunch, and dinner, and I am so thankful I did these things today. I feel like I'm back on track, just after one day, and sooo ready to keep it going tomorrow.

    Start back RIGHT NOW! It is never too late!

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    2047 days ago
    You need to step back, take a breather and go back to basics. Bring your snacks to work...great suggestion. Also are you drinking the water?
    I am sure you have heard it all before but just remember -- we hear ya, and we have been there and come through the other side.
    2047 days ago
    So sorry to hear you are feeling down. I have been there many times. First of all you need to have healthy snacks!! Bring a bunch from home!! Nuts, fruit, veggies, string cheese, snack crackers. Read the labels!! You can find a lot out there!!
    You need to break the cycle with the junk food. They say the more you eat the more you crave it, and I believe it!! If you are pregnant you need to eat healthy too for the baby!!

    Don't forget to get some kind of activity!! Walking, even down arm circles is activity!! Keep moving!!!!!

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    Comment edited on: 11/8/2012 6:39:25 PM
    I agree with SHANNADC. Let me suggest you take the focus off weight loss for now and shift to eating healthy foods. Lots of healthy foods. Don't focus on limiting your calories right now. Focus instead on eating lots of veggies, lean protein and complex carbs. Eat until you are fully satisfied and bring healthy snacks to work. Keep them with you so that when you see the snack cart you can say, "Oh, I brought a yummy ________ with me to snack on today." I think it's important to break our "addiction" to the taste of unhealthy foods. Don't forget to get your water in. Healthy foods are what your body will need to grow a healthy baby.
    2048 days ago
    Have you thought about why you're eating snacks so much? Is it stress? Are your regular meals not filling you up? Could it be to console this negative voice telling you you're fat and failing? (Which is not true! Remember to treat yourself with love & respect!)
    Take some time to relax and think on it. Once you can find the root of the issue you can definitely work towards overcoming it!!
    Hang in there!!!!!!!
    2048 days ago
    You will find out what makes you tick....you will move forward. This is not a "quick fix" journey but a lifestyle. Losing weight and getting healthy is over half mental.

    Everytime you feel like giving up....start again. If you want it, it will happen. You will find what works for you. Good job on blogging this though...getting your emotions out. Like I said, a lot of this is mental and we will get through this together

    2048 days ago
    this too shall pass
    2048 days ago
    Shake things up!!! You can do this!!
    2048 days ago
    I'm sorry you're feeling so down. Feb_Showers is right about taking things one day at a time, and sometimes, on my very worst days, I have to slow it down even more and say "I really don't know if I can make it through a whole day just yet, but I KNOW I can make it through the next (meal/interval/hour/fifteen minutes)" and feel better about even tiny accomplishments because they really do add up. You CAN do this. Have a good cry if you need it, then take a deep breath and pick just one thing or time-frame you know you can manage. Then pick another. And keep going. ::Big virtual hugs::
    2048 days ago
    Hey, girl! You can start up the challenge again TODAY. You're still on the team after all! And this week's challenge is staying in-range. If you won't do it for you, do it for us! =) emoticon
    2048 days ago
    I'm so sorry you're feeling like this right now emoticon

    I have been where you are so many times. I remember being so frustrated that I would literally look in the mirror and punch myself. I was angry and every day I would fail.

    Until finally one day I snapped. I had enough. Please remember that all it takes is one day to turn things around. Just one day. Make it through one day and stay on track and you'll be amazed at how great you feel when you wake up the next morning! It will motivate you to make it another great day!
    It's still early and it's not too late to make this your day. You can do it! emoticon
    2048 days ago
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