Still dealing with my inner demons.

Thursday, November 08, 2012

Well the last two days I blew it again. I am convinced that I have a physical addiction to food. Or maybe a mental one at best. I blame my husband in part. I was doing so well yesterday till he annouced he wanted apple pie for dessert. Now I had asked him the day before not to bring a pie home. I knew I wasent strong enough to refuse it. However the next day he got one anyway. And not just one but two. He said they were buy one get one half off. I watched him pound down a whole pie by himself. Thinking to myself.. I hate this man.. he eats what he wants and dosent gain weight. So I am watching him eat this whole pie thinking that is so gross... only to have a nice piece of pie for myself. A small piece. That of course led to another bite on a fork when I walked through the kitchen. Then another. By morning I had downed the whole pie myself.. And if that wasent bad enough my kids wanted pancakes this morning for breakfest. I caved for one of those to. I fear I cant control my cravings .. I may have to move to an island all my myself. On a good note I went for a walk last night. It was cold, and dark, but I got my german shepard and took him for a half hour walk. That is the only postive note I can post today. I dont know if I hate myself for eating that whole pie , or if I hate my husband for bringing it home. emoticon
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    I think you do have a physical addiction to do I.
    I find tasting even the smallest piece a very slippery slope. I can eat a whole small sliver after another.
    I find the best thing to do is to not even have that first taste. Willpower is a difficult thing to master.
    Regarding your need to sit this man down and tell him how you feel and ask him nicely to have his treats while hes at work. Let him know how weak you feel and how his pie's ruined your plan.
    As for the pancakes...I try looking at things and giving them different names (in my head)
    Pancakes= refined bleached white flour mixed with water that will be smothered in high fructose corn syrup.
    Maybe try making some pumpkin pancakes with applesauce on your kids will eat those up too! can use any kind of winter squash in place of the pumpkin and they will never know. Or buy the canned pumpkin (not the pumpkin pie mix, just raw pumpkin) Lots of recipes on the web.
    1991 days ago
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