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Attack of the Lazy Boy

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

Seriously, I wounded myself with a lazy boy style chair because the foot rest came up unexpectedly and wacked me in the leg. I have bruises. I have a hurt hip. Ouchie. Luckily, weight loss is 80% diet. Yeah! While this latest debacle heals, I will be watching my diet, eating my own food, meditating my way to health, and doing the work in Renee Stephen's book 'Full-Filled'. Its basically the book version of IOWL in a handy easy to refer to book. I also use a podcast for mediation and what I do is as I journal and find out what my problems really are: both mental and habitual, I use the meditation to release them. Right now, I'm noticing that I really am eating more than I'm hungry (physically) for. I think maybe I'm bored.

There. I said it. Life is boring the stuffing out of me. All I see is very hard, boring, work in front of me. I don't find the technical aspects entertaining. I don't. The only thing between me and success (other than the economy) is my lack of current knowledge. It goes back to an illusion that I had bought into as a child, perhaps of my own making, perhaps not. I believed that once you finished college, that you could go to work, and just the fact of working would be enough to keep you in the game. Its not true, you must constantly reeducate yourself. Technology is often obsolete by the time its released. Law changes with every election. I can barely keep up with social media. I just read headlines because anything longer and I feel like I've been left in the dust. So. I don't look. It was my coping technique for when I was being abused. I didn't look. Well. That technique was appropriate and worked when I was a child. Now, I have to look. I need to retrain myself to be awake and present and in the moment, I need to not be afraid of failure, because not starting at all is a guarantee of failure.

I hate failure so much that I don't even want to look. emoticon
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    "You will never become who you want to be by remaining who you are."Anonymous.

    "You have great potential. When you believe in all you can be, rather than all you cannot become, you will find your place on earth." --Steve Goodier's Book Riches of the Heart.

    "Happiness isn't getting what you want; it's wanting what you've got."--Sheryl Crow-singer

    Life does have a way of overwhelming us at times. But I have found reading the above and taking time to just worry about what I can control helps to get me refocused.
    2024 days ago
    it's so hard to carve a place for yourself in the world today. All jobs seem to be temporary. Most don't pay well.
    2025 days ago
    " I hate failure so much that I don't even want to look". Wow that's ME !!
    2025 days ago
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    I hate it when furniture attacks! I had a recliner break weirdly and throw me on the floor. Most unpleasant! Wishing you luck with everything...
    2025 days ago
    Are you sure you are not my psychic twin:) ?
    I can relate totally to your fear of looking, your fear of a boring future....etc.

    I myself, also have a fear of fear, fear of pain which totally can be different or the same thing depending on where I'm at mentally but I digress.

    I'm doing the Deepak Chopra 21 day abundance meditation, it's really helping me to see I'm surrounded and blessed by the bounty of the universe .

    Let's embrace a happy boundless mentality!

    Best wishes,
    2025 days ago
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