ANNIEMAE56

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so tired of this!!!

Sunday, November 04, 2012

i read different blogs from several different people and they all encourage me so why can't i get this right. everyday i say i'm going to do this then guess what i fail.

i am an emotional eater and believe me my emotions are all over the place. anger, hurt, sad you name it i'm facing it right now.

it doesn't help that my husband does all the cooking since he is disabled and i work. i use to think he was on my side but sometimes i wonder. his idea of cooking is a meal of fried meat, potatoes fried or mashed, corn macaroni and cheese, gravy, fried okra thats just an example. then he fixes my plate and you can imagine. i don't even like half the stuff he puts on it. i don't eat all of it but if i say anything he gets mad or if i tell him i'll fix my own he says well he won't fix just for him and he'll just snack then i fill guilty.

as for exercise i have good intentions until i get home by then i'm so tired i can't make my self do it. i know this is just an excuse and then i get mad at myself and guess what i reach for something to stuff in my mouth. i am going to start trying to get up early and go to gym before i go to work and walk on treadmill. we will see how that works. i'm going to try it for this week and see how it works. wish me luck...

i know only i can do this but i sure wish i had someone to do it with. any suggestions would be helpful.

i guess i'm through complaining for now.

till later everyone have a wonderful day.
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  • SPUNSILK327
    Annie - No matter what the ups and downs are in your life, please stay with us at SP. We want to hear from you, your struggles, your celebrations. This is a great place. No matter what - keep trying. Trying and failing is still better for you than not trying.

    I am not too good with advice as I fail at good health on a regular basis. But I am always trying. Hang in there and keep in touch.

    You may not think so, but your openness is an inspiration to many of us! Turn it inward and get that mental fire going inside you.

    emoticon Here's a seedling to help you grow.
    2998 days ago
  • HZGLORY
    ANNIEMAE56,
    Noone is going to do this journey for you, it really is all in your court. I used to wait for the right time, or the right emotions or the right whatever until my doctor in final frustration informed me it was time to put myself first and do what I had to do for myself or continue in a slow horrible long painful death. For the first time I started scheduling how I would do what I had to do. So I now always do my exercise before I do anything else I have to do that is priority. Then I make sure I have the right foods in the house to encourage success. I always include my family in on what I am eating but I make sure there is more for them because they do not have weight problems. Your idea of trying to do your exercise earlier is a good idea. When you take care of yourself you have so much more to give to those you care about. I too am an emotional eater but I am trying to come up with things to do to help combat that. Having healthy snacks on hand. Having premeasure foods available that I do not have to work at when I am tired. I do track everything on spark, that keeps me honest with myself and helps guide me. Please don't give up on yourself. That is what you are doing if you give up. You are not doing anything for your hubby by continuing to eat carelessly for his sake. You are just saying I am not worth this fight. Hang in there and I will keep tabs on what you are up to. I too wish I had someone with me or in my town to do this journey with, but I have found exellent friends here and it is alot of support to me so that fills that need. Good Luck on this week of early exercise.

    Susan aka Sparkinator
    2998 days ago
  • KWEENIE777
    Hi Annie, I am so sorry to hear about your dilemma with your DH. Weightloss journey, is all our own when we have no one to support us. It is unfortunate that your DH can't understand how important this is for you. I have become an expert (almost) emoticon when it comes to taking shortcuts to make meals. I buy boxes of Fresh Spring Greens for salads, I also buy precooked chicken and beef from Walmart and use it to add to my salads, they can be used and resealed, almond milk instead of milk, string cheese, a good multigrain bread with low calories and low carbs, swiss cheese, etc. I eat 5-6 moderate meals a day. I also make quick soft corn tortilla tacos with the chicken, add lettuce, tomato, finely grated "Fiesta cheese" (Walmart) it goes a long way in salads, tacos, and quesadillas made with low carb tortillas. I know it is difficult for you to deny your DH the opportunity to show his love through cooking and feeling useful to you by having dinner made for when you get home, but in the end, you are feeling so badly and end up eating anything anyway emoticon This is the part where we have to learn to love ourselves more, especially if it is for health sake, being overweight and feeling badly, or feel so stressed out and frustrated, or unhappy, with things that won't change, but in the end what it may come down to is that you are the only one who can make that change happen. You can eat your quick healthy meals and add a few bites of your DH's cooking! Your plan to get up early in the morning to catch some exercise is a great idea! Good luck on your journey! Be kind to yourself and love yourself. What is most important? Hugs emoticon emoticon
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    2998 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/4/2012 9:52:42 AM
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