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#108 - A Binge?

Friday, November 02, 2012

Last night, I sort of had a binge, but I also had a victory.

I went to my Mom's for dinner. It's our "Girls' Night" that her and I do every Thursday. We eat dinner, and we watch our favorite shows. Yesterday, I texted her that I had a craving for spaghetti, so that's what she made for dinner. The problem: My first "serving" was more like a serving and a half. Afterwards, I went back for seconds. (This time it was more like a serving.) I wasn't exactly happy with myself, but sometimes, you are hungry. I wasn't overly full after eating it all, so I didn't stress too much.

Insert problem #2 - As if I was already full from dinner, I decided "Hey! Let's have some ice cream, Samantha!". Yep. It happened. A big bowl of vanilla ice cream and sprinkles. I am a little upset about this one because well, I knew I was full, and I didn't need it. Honestly, I barely eat ice cream.

After eating the ice cream, I was like "Oh! I want some french fries!". So, on the way home, I had every intention to stop by Wendy's to get french fries, but I didn't. I said "No." Did I want them? Yes. Did I need them? No. This was a pretty big victory for me.

This morning, I've been thinking about my "mini-binge" (although celebrating my victory too!). I think I've realized why I felt the need to eat:

1. I haven't been getting enough sleep. Exercise has exhausted me which is great, but sometimes, I wake up not feeling as though I am 100%. Secondly, my sleep time has been cut short because I am making up hours at work for the holiday season.

2. I'm not 100% happy. I don't like my job, and money stresses me out. Not only that, I have been dealing with some added stress lately.

Sleep and emotions. They sort of got the best of me last night. I don't like it, but today's a new day filled with opportunity. Plus, I plan on making a trip to the gym tonight for some much needed exercise.

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    Thanks for sharing
    2021 days ago
  • BREW99
    Don't you hate these kinds of days? Guess we are all working through our issues... If you find out how to correct binges, let me know.
    2054 days ago
    Lack of sleep is a known cause of over-eating! And I personally find a direct correlation between a poor night's sleep and my desire to eat constantly the next day. I don't have a suggestion for the job situation, but do heartily encourage you to make 8 hrs of sleep/night a high priority!
    2058 days ago
  • LESLIES537
    That was a great victory! Woohooo!! Don't worry about the binge, it happens to the best of us! Keep up the hard work and dedication! emoticon
    2058 days ago
  • C8TSON
    I'm sorry to hear that you have this struggle. I almost think I can relate to you on this one. Sometimes I believe that "just because it's the weekend" or "just because I had a rough day" I can eat whatever I want. I don't, however, know the source of those feelings???? This is something I am still trying to figure out.

    Have you ever watched a little kid eat? Well, when you can finally corral them to the table to eat, they eat a couple of bites, say they are full, and wanna get up and run away to go play again. I TRULY believe that our bodies were made to be hungry to "get by" and eat a little here and there and that is why you see this in little kids. Somewhere along the way though, we often lose this trait, and who can blame anyone? I mean, they always have the ridiculous commercials/billboards/etc that have enticing pictures of food--I am such a sucker for those by the way! emoticon emoticon emoticon How crazy! It's a social norm to "finish what is on your plate." Unfortunately in the culture in which we live, at restaurants they pile those plates up so much, you barely know your food is on a plate! Additionally, if celebrating in your life looked anything like it did in my growing up life it looked something like this: "You got straight A's! Let's go get a burger to celebrate!" "Hey it's your birthday! Eat what you want!"

    I have probably rambled way too much, but I say it for this reason: Culture, the environment in which we are raised, advertisements everywhere you look, food celebrations for EVERY. Single. thing. These are some of the reasons people struggle. I don't think you are abnormal or alone in any way shape or form. And I don't believe that what you are saying needs to be minimized either. I think it is something you need to be aware of, but I believe that you can overcome it. I mean, you proved it when you drove right on past those french fries... emoticon

    You have made such huge strides and accomplishments! emoticon Be proud of those things! I don't know how much of a visualizer you are, but one thing I always try to do, is draw a picture in my mind. Behind me, I imagine a very dark place (I imagine it dark because it was so bad, I don't want to shed any light on the bad and make it a temptation. ie smoking, eating fast food for my ENTIRE diet, sky high blood pressure). In front of me, very close to me, I imagine something very beautiful--this can be whatever you see as beautiful. emoticon Sometimes reflecting on the bad you have come from and looking at what is wonderful and good and right within your reach, can really help you out. I hope this is helpful! And hopefully not too terribly long of a response! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2058 days ago
    Let me know when you figure out how to stop one! I ate about 20 "fun" sized candy bars emoticon
    2058 days ago
    Glad you're able to celebrate your victory despite the minor setback. We all have bad days/nights or in my case weeks. You're doing a great job and I know that you'll be able to pick yourself up and learn from the experience.

    2058 days ago
    I wish I had some advice on stopping a binge, but honestly it doesn't sound like you even binged to me. Did you overeat since you were full? Probably. But a binge to me is when you keep shoveling cr@p in your mouth, feeling so full you're going to vomit(or feel like it). So you ate a larger serving of pasta than you intended, and then ate some icecream? No big deal. It would have turned into a bigger issue had you stopped and got the french fries, then got home and ate more cr@p, despite not being hungry. You did all the right things girly! I am proud of you. :)
    2058 days ago
  • SBRAN833
    Oh boy do I know about binges!!?! ((Sorry this may get long)) .. but I love your attitude about the new day of opportunity and your gym trip later :)

    First off, congrats on that victory over the fries!! Best feeling in the world is saying NO when it's something that sounds so good at the time, but you kept your goal in mind, and it was obviously more important to not have them fries. So congrats again on that.

    Second, go ahead and have the foods that sound good, have and enjoy that time with your family. A diet should be considered more of a lifestyle change. That doesn't mean we are starving for the foods we are craving most, because then we over indulge at times which can lead to more binges ... so for the future: (and drinking a big glass of water before any meal seriously helps)

    1.) Moderation ... though in moderation :) A good starting place is to take whatever it is that your "eyes" are hungry for, and put half of that back before you sit down and eat it. (I mean obviously don't eat it then put it back LOL)
    2.) SLOW DOWN while eating. Chew and enjoy the flavors, the conversations, the whole experience of eating. It takes up to 20 mins for our brains to realize that we're full. Which leads me to the next ...
    3.) Listen. If for a second we hear that, "uffdah, I'm getting full" ... make a conscious effort to stop; put the fork down; have a huge glass of water; and then if you feel you need whatever is left, then eat it, but I can almost guarantee you'll box it up and take it home. :) **this is a HUGE battle won for me this past month**

    After a binge, I drink as much water as possible to help my body break down all the foods I consumed, but I don't dwell on it. It may be a little set back, but we didn't gain it in a day from eating one too many helpings of spaghetti at a dinner, so we won't lose that in a day either. All we can do is make conscious decisions to over come these things... it gets easier. We just have to slow down and listen. Keeping our long term goals in mind.. Losing weight isn't just about the physical changes, a lot of it has to do with rerouting our brains as well!

    Keep up the amazing work!! emoticon
    2058 days ago
  • CIPHER1971
    Grats on your victory, when I binge I tend to count it as a day off and just let my body decide for one day what it needs

    Take care
    2058 days ago
    I have no advice on stopping a binge. Mostly I try to stop them before they get started, by using small bags of chips, or not bringing certain foods into the house, but sometimes, they just happen. You did manage to say no, which is a good thing! It's not like you at 6000 calories at one sitting (there are people who binge that way!!). Don't beat yourself up - just get back on track, you can do it!
    2058 days ago
    I did the binge thing earlier this week. I was right in the path of Hurricane Sandy and was stuck in the house from Sunday afternoon through Wednesday morning. Thankfully all we got at my house was mostly very, very high winds, which I hardly slept all night Monday night because the noise kept me awake, plus my EMT husband was working in the storm and I was home alone with the kids. Surpisingly, we never lost power and nothing major was damaged, although friends of mine that live a couple miles away lost power and still don't have it back. Anyway, mu husband wanted me to go to his parent's house and stay there, but they live an hour away and are in bad shape. It wasn't that he wanted me to be there to help them, he wanted me there to have them help me with the kids. But honestly, I feel more stressed at their house as they tend to make things more difficult with my kids than easier, so I convinced him to let me stay home. Anyway, being cooped up in the house during a hurricane meant eating a bunch of junk for a couple days. And it affected me as the scale went up for the next couple days, but it's back down again, thank goodness, as I've been extra careful since then.

    As for stopping a binge? Well, I'm not always able to do so, but when I'm struggling with not allowing myself to eat, I try to remind myself how I feel afterwards or find something else to keep me occupied. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. If I do binge, I try not to beat myself up. I just tell myself that it's the past and I need to look at the future and keep trying and working hard.

    Sorry to hear about your stress, emotional stuff, and lack of sleep. I hope things turn around soon. I get the job thing, I'm in that position right now. Anyway, I hope a trip to the gym helps lift your mood and de-stresses you some.

    2058 days ago
    Your blog today sounds a little like mine yesterday. It's frustrating when you have a love for food, that you know you shouldn't eat too much of. :) Congrats on your victory too! It feels good when you can finally say "no" to something that you really want, but do not need.

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    2058 days ago
    That is great we all need that moment when we eat what we want and how much we want. Congrats on the not getting any french fires that is a huge victory for you. Keep pushing hard and have fun at the gym tonight. emoticon emoticon
    2058 days ago
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