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Thursday, November 01, 2012

I was just looking at my pics on my page and thinking wow I look kinda disfigured! Extra weight has a way of transforming you. I look in the mirrow and still see me but when I lose this weight I will look different still. One day, I remember going to Wendy's drive-thru and parking in their parking lot. Every time I put a fry in my mouth I would cry because I knew what I was doing was wrong.

I know for me releasing my pains through blogs is a form of medication. Maybe someone will find solace through me. I was once a member at a gym but later proposition for sexual favors which I declined. It became uncomfortable to go to the gym, so I enventually quit. I never told the proper authorities because I felt no one would believe me. I've been away from that gym for over a year and just cancelled my subscription.

I declare that I wish not to eat what is eating at me anymore!

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  • CRISSA1669
    Hey Sister! Oh how that makes me angry to hear about your experience with the gym....dirty dog!! I'm even more sorry that it caused a stumbling block and we know it doesn't take too much to set us back. I'm just glad you are determined to press on. I've been at this weight loss thing since march 2011 and I never once used a gym. I worked out at home in my garage and hit the streets when I started running. I have quite the collection of workout videos, most borrowed from the library for free... And with the help of a CD burner.....those videos can hang around a little longer....
    All going well in my neck of the woods. Running is going well. My normal runs are now between 6-9 miles....is that normal??? It just gets to feeling good I just keep on going. I'm in the home stretch of losing the weight, so much so that I'm. It really paying a ton of attention to the scale. Don't get me wrong, I weigh regularly but it is my focus that has changed. I haven't changed too much of my diet since I eat very well but I am very mindful of my portions, because that is exactly how I got up to 273 in the 1st place...way too much of a good thing. It's so strange to see myself so much smaller. I actually love it, I am overjoyed and so glad I got my body under subjection as the Bible commands.. Too bad it took me 25 years, to think I could have been enjoying this life that much more. But there is no testimony without the test so now I can encourage others who are where I was because I get it. So you my dear, keep going forward, The Lord has plans and you need to be ready. Lord bless you sweet Sister.
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  • HANDS_UP
    Thanks everybody! Your support is priceless!

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  • HONEYBEE373
    I wish not to eat what is eating at me anymore!

    Thanks for the great quote. So simple, yet says so much and really hits home for me.

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  • ERIN1957
    Beautifully wrote, beautifully said. Heart felt sharing is one of the best ways to heal.
    Perhaps you can find a safe place to share in your health quest and a place you feel safe enough to exercise again. I know I always do better when I have someone to share my journey with. A buddy to walk with, jog with exercise with.....
    You are just a beautiful person inside and out and do not like disfigured at all...lovely you are! No more tears only happiness in health and in healthy new lives.
    Hugs,
    Erin
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  • JUDYHELP
    emoticon THAT IS A TRUE STATEMENT, WELL PUT. I WISH YOU SUCCESS ON GETTING FIT/HEALTHY AND LOTS OF HAPPINESS. emoticon FOR BRIGHT DAYS TO COME. emoticon emoticon JUDY
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