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It's still hard to be without him

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Since my last blog, things have developed quite a bit.

I now have a lawyer, to protect what is now mine. Deed is being updated today or tomorrow.

The Ex will need to prove that anything she wants for the (grown) kids did not come from marital funds.

I have deadbolts on the house and the garage.

The Pathfinder needs some serious work, but I need a few months of driving it before I can get a loan for another vehicle. And I will need a 4WD or AWD vehicle. And it ain't gonna be a standard!! :-P

I've managed to get 2 days in a row of WATP. It wasn't a long video, but it was movement.

I carry a container of dried apricots in my purse, to avoid hypoglycemic episodes, especially when I'm driving. I haven't decided what kind of protein I want to have with that, and that it won't spoil.

And I've started the process of dealing with the day-to-day bills again, making sure there's enough money in the account for the automatic debits.

I've had people stay overnight every night since he passed.

My dog seems to be doing ok. She's eating, and is about as peppy as a 14-yr old German Shepherd can be. But I can tell she misses him too.

I'm still not tracking how much I eat or drink, but that will come soon. I'm more concerned about how it will be when my appetite returns.

There's a reason why there is no chocolate in my house. I can't go there just yet.

Today, I'm not going to do a whole lot. I have one friend coming over after work, the FrankenStorm (aka Storm Sandy) isn't bad here, though the thunder last night was something like I've never heard before. Some wind gusts, the occasional "drownpours", but other than that, so far, we're ok. Power went out for about 2 mins overnight, and I'm relieved over that one.

I miss him a lot, especially at home. I know when I go back to work later in November, I'll be thankful for the distractions, but being home is going to be hard. I have considered getting a roommate, at least for the winter, but I'm not a big fan of that right now. But I know I'll need some company in the evenings ... I just don't know what form that will be just yet.

So I'm hanging in there. I'm still around.

Thank you for being there for me, Sparkers. It's good to have friends who have big shoulders.
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  • PICKIE98
    A warm embrace to you. A roommate is a great idea especially for those high winter utilities.
    2017 days ago
    So sorry for your loss. emoticon

    How about some nuts for protein with your apricots?
    2023 days ago
    Missing you Jo. Seems like you're giving me more support right now that I'm giving you. :) You are giving me the strength to get going again, so today is my day one. I'm here with my big shoulder. :)
    2031 days ago
    I am so sorry that you are being put through a hard time with the ex. So sad. Your lose is hard enough without that. I have prayed the LORD send you friends that can bring you some comfort. Friends to help your loneliness. I am glad you did have a wonderful love with him. That is something that will be with you always. Take comfort in the wonderful memories with him.
    2032 days ago
    no words, just here.
    2033 days ago
    I lost one of my boyfriend last year. My heart goes out. Sometimes I still sleep with his shirt. Huge Hugs. emoticon
    2033 days ago
    Aww hang in there Friend. It will be tough you know that. One day at a time is all you can promise. Keep in mind the memories that you have of him and hold onto the fact that he loved you. No offence but he Ex can go pound sand. Don't let her get to you. Keep your chin up and take advantage of all of the love and support that you will receive from this day on.

    2033 days ago
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