Saturday, October 27, 2012
This year I have been so sick of myself.... It's been an emotional mess all year long and I've been severely depressed, closeted and worst of all... unmotivated.
What's worse is, I'm an emotional eater... and with the rapid amount of emotions soaring through me this year... I've had my fair share of mess ups when it comes to eating.
I KNOW I've put on weight... far too much weight over the year and I'm not proud of it AT ALL. I actually saw some photos from a work picnic from earlier this summer and was so shocked to see how awful I looked! Not to mention, I was asked 3 times this year when I was due.... when... I'm not even pregnant! Talk about embarrassing!
Yesterday I made a pact with a co-worker at work and one with my husband... Since I know how I am and I know how bad I typically get with the wrong types of foods. I have them on watch out.
I have an obsession with soda. A really really bad obsession with soda... my co-worker has said, if she hears the pop top go off, she's coming over to steal it and pour it out. I guess its no better than an alcoholic and you going through an intervention? This is mine.
My family at home are to do the same thing.
Same goes for fast food, if I get it ... the co-worker has agreed to come over and take it away and toss it. Sure, I'll be mad for a minute or two... But, This is what I want and need! Tough love.
I'm taking my life back... Things at home are improving, slowly but surely... so I need to get something far more important back in control too. My life.