Something clicked this time.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
It's Day 12 of my weight loss journey. Still doing great. Day 4 was the absolute hardest, and it's been not bad since getting over that hump.
Something clicked this time. I have started this weight loss journey countless times before. I usually don't last a week. This time, before starting to make changes, I did some self-reflection: WHY can't I stick to a weight-loss plan? I discovered two things. 1) I have an addiction to fast food, and 2) I do a lot of harmful self-talk. (ex. "If you don't have a piece of cake, you'll miss out." "Don't worry, it's Thanksgiving. Everyone over-eats." "You can start eating healthy tomorrow, go ahead and get that burger and fries.") Even just realizing that I do these things has helped me quit doing them.
I've known for years and years that I need to lose weight. But when my doctor told me so at my last physical appointment, I decided "yep, she's right. Enough of this crap." Something clicked, and I was more determined than ever.
I put some things in place to help ensure my success this time. I tend to cheat if I don't have to be accountable to anyone outside myself, so I joined a local chapter of TOPS (Taking Off Pounds Sensibly). I've been to two meetings so far, and the weigh-ins do help keep me on track. I've also subscribed to SparkCoach. I've only been using that for a few days, but it seems to be a really good motivational/accountability tool. My mom calls me every few days to make sure I'm on track and not struggling, and my daughter & husband are being very supportive. I've also told anyone who cares that I'm on this journey. If they come to me and ask how I'm doing, I'd feel bad telling them I failed, so failure isn't an option anymore.
I have to go back to my doctor on Friday to talk about my blood test results (apparently something's wrong with my thyroid - more on that next time), I'm excited to tell her I've already lost some weight.
Keep kicking fat's ass!