It's me starting .... again!
Sunday, October 21, 2012
I feel like I've just been "playing" around with losing weight. I lose my focus and get distracted so easily.
A week ago, my department at work went to a local park for a picnic. Someone took pictures and copied them onto a directory we all have access to. Oh my gosh - were those pictures really of me? I look like I'm wearing a fat suit! Oh my goodness - oh my goodness - oh my goodness!
It's time I faced the fact that I really, really, really do need to change my lifestyle and take off this weight. I feel like I'm doing all the "wrong" things that my parents did, and it's gotten me to where I am. NOT that I blame them - it's the choices that I've made that have gotten me here - or rather, the distractions I've allowed that have led me here.
I went to the gym associated with a local hospital one night this past week. I didn't do much - just a bit to see how it went. I was in such pain that night - even with the little I did! My lower back spasms very, very easily, and it's very painful. That's what was hurting so badly! I had thought about joining it (you can go with a pass for a week for free), but I've realized that the main reason I want to do so is to use the treadmill. Our treadmill at home has instructions that say you have to go a minumum of 2.0 MPH, and while my hip works great now (YAY!), it doesn't work fast yet. Well I talked with DH and he agrees that I can just give it a try at slower speeds, and if it breaks, then it breaks. We also have a bicycle and weights, so there's not really a need for me to pay to go.
I have to also stop being down about missing my sweetie during the week. I see him over the weekend, then not for the whole because because of his schedule with the job he got a year ago. Okay, I know there are a lot of single people who get along just fine, but I'm used to having him around, as we celebrated our 24th anniversary earlier this year! okay, so I'll admit it - he spoils me! Of course, I try to spoil him back, but I do truly mourn him during the week.
Instead of mourning, which leads me to watch too much TV and eat too much junk, I want to start LIVING! I love to cook, but I haven't really cooked in years. Making things from scratch - it's so much fun, but I have pretty much pushed that out of my life. I'm going to start doing some of that during the week, and just ENJOYING it! And, I'm going to become consistent with activity during the week.
I've already printed out some of those yucky pictures - just have to cut them out and place them where they'll be the most use to me! Let's see if I can lose 10 pounds by the end of the year - that would be a fine start!