A huge shout-out and thank you the my
SP friend, MEADSBAY for pointing me in the direction of TUT.com and Mike Dooley's wonderful 'Notes from the Universe'....
What started as a 'nice' daily encouragement and occasional chuckle has blossomed into a truly life-changing exposure to Mike Dooley's more lengthy writings including Leveraging the Universe, Infinite Possibilities and Manifesting Change: It Couldn't be Easier.
(...and ironically, what started as an effort to lose weight using SP ended up being that and so much more thanks to unexpected avenues my SP friends like MEADSBAY introduced me to....do you think I knew that when I titled my SP Page "Now the Journey Begins for Real" more than 2 years ago???? Freaky!
The number of 'self-help' books I've read up to this point in my life could (and likely would or have) fill a big dumpster to the brim. All of them taught me something and gave me lots to think about. But none of that learning ever stuck with me....at least never long enough to effect the truly lasting change and growth I was hoping to experience.
But, in the stroke of fate (coincidence, ha ha ha) we all hope for, 'this time was different'.
This past July, I took a last minute retreat to get some quiet time and rest in the midst a deeply challenging and upsetting period in our family's life. I had no books to take as I had no time to go to the library before leaving, and on a whim, splurged on an e-book....Leveraging the Universe. I read it over a period of 2 or 3 days and I've never looked back.
I came home happy. Deeply, truly, profoundly happy. The kind of happy I think we all look for in many different places and things....and experiences....and achievements.....and people. The kind of sustained, unshakeable happy I had (quite honestly) thought I just wasn't wired to experience.
And that happiness stuck. Not only did it stick, it grew and continues to grow.
It is now 4 months later. Our family challenges are, if anything, more pressing than they were in July. But it really doesn't matter - I know there is a solution to the issue that will happen at some point, and I expect it to happen sooner rather than later. I and we are working tirelessly to that end....and the further along we go, the more challenges we face, the harder it gets....you won't believe it....the more excited, energized, determined, focused...and HAPPY I become.
No, I am not on drugs - prescription or otherwise. I've never been healthier. And no, I have not become a cult-ish devotee to any person or ideology....I don't rush to Mike Dooley's seminars, buy his (or anyone elses) products etc. Nor do I do any of the things (like yoga, meditation, affirmations, 'life work', journalling etc) that I had previously thought (and desperately hoped) might bring me to the place I'm at. None of the above. I also exercise less, eat more and don't fret or obsess about anything....all pretty much polar opposite to the 'old' me.
I've just had a big shift that has stuck.
Maybe I was just ready. Maybe I heard / read things in a way that finally made sense to me. Maybe it's the cumulative effect of my past efforts. Maybe it's what those more formally religious than me call grace.
I am not for a minute suggesting that what worked for me is 'the right answer' for anyone else....but I am willing to suggest....strongly.... that any of my SP friends who are still looking for your happy place not to give up. Don't stop. Be relentless. Be hopeful. Don't quit. Keep the faith. The answers might be right around the corner...you just never know. And that knowledge alone.... is enough to send me into a paroxism of delight at what a wondrously exciting experience it is to live this life.
Call me "coo coo" if you want - no harm intended, but I could honestly care less if you do. What people think about me or what I do just doesn't matter (this too is new! I accept me completely, just as I fabulously am!) There is no malice...I am much nicer to be around (validated by objective 3rd party authorities supreme - my husband and kids). The climate change in our house has been significant and generally speaking, there is a whole new feeling of peace all around. It is ALL good.
So here's what I actually intended to post today before I got going in an unexpected direction....it sums up where I'm at and makes me giddy anew to remember that the happiness I sought was with me all along....
"Neither a promotion, losing weight, finding a soul mate, writing a book, nor becoming a billionaire, Kimberly, will ensure happiness.
Nothing ensures happiness. No destination is great enough. No dream come true will do.
Because happiness, dear Kimberly, that's not present at the start of a journey will not be present at its end.
Peace out, happy campers!!!